Kingdom Of Cards chpt 4 N.S. story Bad Omens

Forget the past

Noah's POV
"BROOKLYN F*CKING JUMP" I roar into my microphone as the enormous crowd jumps to the beat of our song "limits " . We're playing in New York city tonight and it's awesome!
We're touring with my bestie Will Ramos and his band Lorna Shore for another month.

Life is wild, crazy, life of the party kinda vibe, and I freakin love it! But I should probably back up a few years....

The day Eleanor left, I called the police and asked them to search for her. After one year of just wasting time, I lost all hope and had to except that she wasn't coming back, but I didn't handle it well at all. I ended up in the hospital for a few weeks cause I tried to kill myself again, but from an overdose instead of a slit wrist. Phil once again saved my life and helped me get back on track with therapy and lots of medication. I was so down for a really long time, but I had a lot of help from my buddies and my pal William too.

As I was recovering in the hospital, Will told me he wanted to sign to record label to make a record, which I helped him with as that promise I made him.
Now he and his band are really kicking it off, so we're touring together.

I think about Eleanor whenever I see a girl who looks like her or when another girl's eyes are above me, and even when I feel another girl's touch...
It's not Eleanor and will never be, but she's not coming back I had to learn to except that... though it's the most painful part of my life, letting my son and my angel go. I miss Sebastian so much, I hope he's happy. I don't know where he or Eleanor are or where they went, but I pray for them whenever it comes to mind and just wish them the best.

I sold our house and moved back in with the guys. Just like old times.
I visit Paddy pretty often, but not while I'm on tour. He's usually at church volunteering.

I don't date anymore, I don't believe in love anymore either. I have a girl I hang with sometimes, but it's not a relationship. I don't love her, we're just friends with benefits. Sally is a pretty girl, but I know we don't belong together. She would date me if I asked, but I just don't want that ever again. Eleanor broke my heart and it never will be glued properly, so I don't play with fire anymore. Sally is our makup artist, and my "lover" I still struggle with severe depression so her company helps me think about something else, she's aware of it all .

Nick got married to Joanna and Jolly is dating a model. Folio owns his own motorcycle shop with a buddy and I'm just living my life.

AFTER THE SHOW
"Yes ! That was f*cking amazing!" I yelled as the boys and I remove our shirts to change. "Beautiful!" Folio smiles as Jesse pulls up in our tour bus. "Ladies move those *ss " he jokes as we quickly change our pants.
"Hey Noah? Take your shoes!' Nick jokes as he tosses me my leather shoes. "Alright let's go!" I yelled as we quickly run to our tour bus.

Arriving at the hotel

I set my suitcase down on the floor as I walked towards my bed and strip my clothes, excluding my boxers before laying on my back. "Noah, where do you want this?" I looked up and saw Sally holding my computer.
"Ugh desk, please." She nods and sets it down. "Sally, come here" I said sitting on my elbows now as her long brown hair sways back and forth against her shoulders. "Come here" was code for f*ck me. She stares at my boxers then back at me. "You're depressed again. " I rolled my eyes as she gets on her knees. "You know the drill" she rolls her eyes now and slowly slides my boxers down.

One taste of the life now I grave it

Our song "Miracle" was pretty much my life now, depression, sex, and mental health issues. I don't know who I've become, but I love the fame... It's all an imagination, but if it's worth what it's worth.... then I'd do it till I die.

"Thanks Sally" I said breathless as she tucks me back in. "I'd rather you drink then have me suck you all the time... it's just a distraction for the depression, Noah. I can see it." She says walking to turn the lights off.
"I can't drink all the time, you know why." She then turns the lights down and I lyed in bed. " Goodnight, Noah" she then leaves my room. Slowly I start to drift to sleep.....

Eleanor's POV
My father just died of a heart attack three months ago, now I can't afford his house or to support my son and me. Sebastian has been going to school since we left five years ago and is doing well. He's very smart, and creative.... just like his father.

I think about Noah weekly, but I know he's moved on. I hear his music on the radio but can't listen to his beautiful voice anymore. He has to be so proud of himself, he and the band have been incredibly successful and I'm so happy for all of them.

As I was putting some dishes away, Sebastian comes in through the front door. "Hey mom, I need to get a refill." He says showing me his inhaler. He has asthma just like me. "Ok, Sebastian we'll get some when we arrive in San Francisco Okay? " I said as he nods. We're selling this house and moving to California. I need money and I need to find a way to make it. "Sebastian are you ready? " I call grabbing my purse off the kitchen counter. "Yes mom" I nod as he grabs our suitcases. "Here, I'll take mine." I nod as we step down to the front door.

Since we left, I dyed my hair blonde, bought a car, got a job and was helping dad raise Sebastian. Dad's death was so unexpected, and I miss him dearly.... he was a good man.
My father lived in China with us for a while, but eventually we moved back to Canada and then to Wisconsin.
Sebastian and I are leaving now, we can't stay here.

"Okay, put your seatbelt on honey" I said pulling out of the driveway of our sold house. Now we need to focus on a new chapter in life.....