Kingdom Of Cards chpt 4 N.S. story Bad Omens

Secret

FILLER*** DEPRESSION
Eleanor's POV
Noah and I got home right as Amanda was leaving. She watched Sebastian for us as we went out for a walk by the ocean.

Noah opens the door quickly and walks in before me. He seemed pissed, but didn't show it around Amanda or Sebastian, who was upstairs taking a nap. As I locked the door, Noah slams me back into the wall and kisses me hard. I moan as he presses himself against me firmly before pulling away out of nowhere.
"What the hell was that, Noah?" I questioned as he walks into the kitchen. I slowly watch him as he grabs an energy drink and sets it on the counter before walking over to me. "What's going on with you? " he doesn't reply, instead he picks me up and sets my on the counter. "Hey! Stop it." I grab his cheeks and make him look at me. "What's wrong with you? " he just stares at me, he had those same heartbroken eyes just like the night we reunited. "You look so sad." I whispered as he grabs my hand and kisses my knuckles while closing his eyes. "I need you to stay. I feel so f*cking depressed again." I pull him in a tight hug as he buries his face into my neck. "It's Okay, Noah... I'm right here now." I wanted to cry, he's had severe depression problems for a long time. I remember them five years ago and they were always so hard on him.
"Noah, let's go upstairs." I whispered as he shakes his head. "Please, just don't leave." If I left, I know he'd cut himself again and that scared me so much. "I promise you, Noah... I'm not leaving you." He slowly pulls away and nods. "Please.. I just need someone here." I totally understood why he wanted someone close bye.
"You need to take your pills baby. "
"Can't you just be my pill?" He asked but that meant sex, and I hate when he uses sex to hide from his problems.
"Come on. Let's go upstairs. " he finally listened and follows behind me upstairs.

I guide him to the bathroom and start up the bathtub. "Noah, why don't you strip and climb in?" He was already removing shoes as I grab a wash cloth from the bathroom shelves. I felt so bad for Noah, he's been battling this for years and even before I knew him.

Noah eventually gets in the tub and looks up at me with sadden eyes.
"Baby, what's going on? " I whisper while rubbing his cheek. "I feel horrible. It happens sometimes. " he explains. "Noah, what are you thinking? " he grabs my hand and pulls me towards him in the tub. His muscles showing as he physically pulls for me. "Noah I'm- "please, baby girl please " his eyes were so shattered, it was so sad. Finally I climb over him and sit in his lap and stare at him.
Our eyes did the talking as I slowly lean in and kiss him. The water following our every move as we start a heated makeout session. My clothes sticking to my skin as Noah runs his hands underneath my tank top and unclipped my bra. He removes my tops and tosses them on the floor as he presses his hands down on my *ss.
My hands land on his shoulders as he leans back, pulling me down on top of his body. I unzip my shorts and slowly work my way out of them as Noah cups my breasts. "I love these." He whispered before kissing around them slowly. My lips part as he squeezes them tightly, making me let out a whimper. "Ugh, Noah" I feel his excitement underneath me as he starts sucking my breasts. "Baby" I arch my back, making my chest stand out as he bites down. "F*ck!" Tossing my head back, I slide my righ hand between his long legs and start to palm him. "Ugh" he whispered setting his head back against the tub. The sight of him is so f*cking beautiful.

Eventually I get my shorts and undergarments off before positioning myself with Noah. I slowly push him into me and just sit there on his lap.
"Baby? We need to talk." I said quietly as he nods. "I'm not sure what to say...
I have depression problems, mentally I'm a wreck, and physically I'm needy." He says as I keep my hands on his shoulders. "You have medication though, they should help. " he shakes his head and sets his hands on my hips. "I'm so f*cked up, Eleanor...
I can't change it." What he said was true, but I can see him from a better life. "Life won't change, but we can." I whispered before kissing him again....