Kingdom Of Cards chpt 4 N.S. story Bad Omens

Save Yourself

Eleanor's POV
I walked back into our bedroom full of anger. Why is he doing this again?
I know he has severe depression but he also has medications to help with those problems. I love Noah, so much but this is getting old. We have two kids to look after. The last thing they need is to one day find their father dead from a suicide. He needs to get his head together. I thought we were mostly over those days of slicing and drinking? Is this healthy for him and I or both of us? Why are we back to this place again.

Noah's POV
"I had a friend who committed suicide from so much stress and troubles in her personal life. She was a beautiful girl with a beautiful smile, we all miss it every day. So please honey, just hold on. Whatever you need, please call me. I'll come help you, ok?" I smile as Amanda slowly slides the needle and string through my flesh.

"If you're comfortable telling me, what's going on in your head?" She asks sweetly. I really appreciate her kindness. She reminds me of Nana.
Somone I can feel comfortable talking to about my personal issues with, and not being judge for it.

"I just get very depressed. Sometimes I have flashbacks of my past and it hurts so much that... this seems to take that pain away a little." I explained while slightly holding up my wrist. "What past issues, dear?"
I swallow harshly as she gently runs a towel around my wrist to collect the blood. "Abuse... physically, mentally, sexually, and- I didn't realize I was crying until Amanda gently rubbed a fresh towel underneath my tired eyes.
"I'm so sorry, honey. I know how hard that is." She looked so sad too, like she understood what I went through.
"Did you go through that too?" I asked as she nods. "Almost every one of them. I understand, sweetie." I lean in and give her a tight hug with my right arm. She hugs me back tightly while comfortingly rubbing my back.
"We're gonna be alright though. Life holds so many adventures that it's worth living. " I slightly nod as she smiles and looks back down at my arm....

Eleanor's POV
"Physically, mentally, sexually and-
I listen to Noah as he spoke his heart out to Amanda. I didn't realize he was still holding onto the past and how much it was effecting him. He didn't tell me that these things were on his mind and that makes me feel even worse. I want him to come to me and talk about his pains and traumas.

As I stand outside the bathroom door, I feel this wave of sadness flooding through me. I need to do better, we both need to do better...

Noah's POV
About twenty minutes later, Amanda had me all stitched up and ready to go. Since it was so late, I offered Amanda to stay the night, but she insisted the whole trip was no problem and she'd be happy to come back in the morning. After saying Goodnight to her, I watched her leave before heading into the kitchen.

As I opened the fridge, hear some soft footsteps approaching me. Her arms wrap around my waist as her soft lips leave kisses on my back. "I'm sorry, Noah" I slowly turn around and can barely see her pretty face, the fridge was the only lighting. Ellie had her hair in a bun still wearing my clothes and a saddened face expression.
"I'm really sorry too. I know I shouldn't but- I chock on my words and get tongue tied. "Noah, I shouldn't have been that harsh with you when you're hurting. I want you to tell me so we can help each other understand. I love you, Noah... talk to me." I lean down and kiss her while reaching my hand down to her *ss and picking her up to sit on the counter.
Her legs pull me closer as my hands rest on her thighs. "You wanna forgot this night? " I asked kissing her jawline. "Make some bad decisions? " she teases as I chuckled. "Yeah, just bad, bad decisions." She slightly giggles as I help her off the counter and back onto the floor. "Upstairs, Angel" she smiles and kisses my cheek before heading upstairs.

Only if she knew what's coming....