Kingdom Of Cards chpt 4 N.S. story Bad Omens

Feeling it here

Eleanor's POV
Noah and I fell asleep on the hammock he had in the backyard after we got out of the bathtub.

As we were cuddled together, Noah had his back against my chest while I held him tightly to try and make him feel like he's not alone. The wind blows peacefully past us as our fingers were interlocked together and set them right on Noah's chest. We sit for a few more minutes just enjoying the peaceful atmosphere before I kiss his head.

"How are you feeling, Noah?" I whispered as he runs circles on my knuckles. "Lost but at peace. When you're in my life, Eleanor... I just lose my mask and can be me around you. I miss our days together and I just.....
I wish we could bring them back."
His voice was quiet and emotional as the painful words leave his mouth.

"Noah, we can try again."
"When we're not so different" I laughed at his 'Just Pretend ' lyrics before leaning up and kissing his cheek. "That entire song is us, think about it. I sat with you in the hospital when Selina died, that was us at the bottom. Then you left, so I stayed away just like you wanted me to. I waited years cause I had to and now...
I'm never gonna get over you." I bite my lip as my eyes were tearing up.
'Just Pretend' was literally our life.
I left making it where he had to wait, for years. He left me alone which was staying away and now.... I don't think we will ever get over each other. I don't know if this is gonna work, but this reunion between us will permanently change everything.

"Noah, I'm so sorry for everything. I know you don't love anymore, but I love you. I always will" I said hugging him from behind as he slowly turns around to face me. He was now above me and sets his arms beside my head.
"I know, your letter said that too."
I furrow my brows in confusion, when did I write him a letter?
"When did you get a letter from me?"
"You left me a long letter the night you left." He says in disappointment as I stare at the pink sky above us.
"Do you still have it?" He shakes his head. "I burned it when I was smoking one night. Every time I'd read it, my heart would ache. It was like pushing the knife in, so far that it killed you within seconds. I couldn't have anything in my life that brought back memories of you or us or... our f*cked up life. " I nodded as a tear fell down my cheek. "I'll always remember that night.... but I'd love to erase it." I really broke his heart to the point he wanted no memory of me. I don't deserve him anymore.

"Noah? Would you ever forgive me. "
His eyes meet mine before saying,
"I don't think I can... but I want to try." That was enough for me, at least he's gonna try.

He leans down to kiss me softly as I run my fingers through his hair.
His wet lips against mine was so...
Romantic and sad, but I missed this feeling for so long and I needed it.

Noah lays his large body above mine as our kiss deepens. I pull him against me as our tongues fight for dominance and our hands roaming each other's bodies. I slide my hands underneath his hoodie and start digging my nails into his back as he sits up on his knees.

"I wanna f*ck you but not on a hammock. I'll fall on my face." I laughed as he steps off and reaches for my hand. I gladly expected his large one as he guides me to the house. "I wanna take you somewhere." I couldn't help but smile as he holds the door open for me before walking in right behind me.
"I'm gonna call Amanda and ask her to watch Sebastian for a few hours." I nod as he pulls out his phone and dials her number.

As Noah was on the phone with Amanda, I walk over to a few picture frames on a desk by the window.
As I got closer, I saw a recent picture of Noah and the guys in Las Vegas after a show. Nick was hugged him from behind as Noah was smiling, hugging Will and Folio. Jolly was making the peace symbol as Jesse and Brian were standing beside him. Those guys have always been such close friends, it's cute to see them just the way they were years ago.

I move to the second picture, which was a picture of Noah holding Sebastian in an ice cream shop. The day I got sober we went there to celebrate. I smiled at the adorable picture then walk to the third picture.
That picture was a photo of Paddy and Noah at a concert together. I'm so happy he was able to forgive Paddy and become pretty close again.

"Ok Ellie, let's go." Noah smiles before grabbing my hand. "Is Amanda here yet?" I asked looking back and forth. "She's just pulling in." He points as we step out the front door. As we make our way to his car, Amanda smiles at us. "Hello, sweetheart!" She smiles before hugging Noah then me. "Hey mandy, thank you." He smiles down at her as she nods. "He's a sweetheart. I'm so happy to watch him!' She's so sweet. I smile at her as she let's Noah's hand go. "He's a great kid." Noah continues to smile while pulling me against him with his right arm.
"Yes. Well have fun you two! I'll bake a pie for when you come back."
"Thank you, Amanda!" I said as she smiles brightly. "Absolutely, honey.
Bye for now!" We wave as she heads to the front door and Noah and I get in his car.....