i'm right where you left me

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over the next few days, i showed leah some of my favourite places in germany. we went out a lot and had lots of fun.
she's going back to london tomorrow evening so we don't really have long left.

after we ate dinner we went to my room.

i sat there on my phone when i was knocked in the head by a pillow. leah stood there laughing with the pillow in her hands.

"bastard" i said. i picked up another pillow and whacked her with it. i ran away from her and she caught me, hitting me again causing me to fall on the bed and drop the pillow. i went to reach for it but she climbed on top of me and pinned me to the bed with my arms above my head.

"oh no you don't" she said laughing. we both laughed and then i looked straight into leah's eyes.

she leaned down and connected our lips. she kissed me and i kissed her back.

"shit" i said.
"leah you know we can't be anything" i sighed.

"i know. im sorry, i just thought" she said.

she climbed off me and we both got ready for bed. i wore a tshirt and underwear and leah wore shorts and a sports bra.

we slid in together, sitting against the headboard and i opened my laptop pulling up netflix and putting on a movie. she moved closer to me and i leaned into her. she kissed the side of my head and we watched the movie.

man i miss leah. i miss being hers. i miss the little kisses and touches. i miss the scent of her. i miss her silly little habits. i miss how she wiped my tears. i miss how she made me smile. i miss everything about her.

maybe if i didn't move things would be different and we could be happily together.

leah's pov
during the movie, izzy fell asleep in my arms. i closed the laptop and put it on the side before moving us down to lay more comfortably.

"night my iz. i will make you mine again one day my love" i whispered and kissed her forehead.

izzy's pov
the next day, i took leah out one final time. we went to a park and kicked around a football like we used to when we were in high school. when things were easier. when we were together.

about 3 years later (2016-17 season)
things have improved slightly for me. i'm still friends with leah and jack. we talk often but not every day. i won the league with bayern in both my previous seasons here.

i also got a girlfriend. her name is emma and she works as a bartender.

i guess after that kiss with leah, i felt like i needed to forget about her in a romantic way. i was hurting knowing that we both wanted eachother but couldn't have each other so i decided the best way to do that would be to find someone new.

emma is a great girl. she's funny, pretty and smart. but she's no leah. i think ill always have that place in my heart for leah. that part of my heart is hers and nobody can take that.

today was the last game of the season. we came second in the league.
we won 2-0 both scored by viv.

we recently found out that she's leaving at the end of this season and moving to arsenal.

"viv i'm really going to miss you" i said hugging her tightly after the match. it's our last match together.

"i'm going to miss you too love" she said.

a few days later, i got a call.

"izzy, they want you at arsenal. they're prepared to bid a lot" my manager said.

"shit really?" i asked.

"yes" he said.

"i'm going" i said. i had already decided. we talked through some of the details.

arsenal is my childhood club. my home. england is my home.

i sat at the dining table in shock at what's just happened. arsenal want me back.

the front door knocked and i went to open it.

emma stood there and i let her in. i kissed her cheek and she sat with me at the table.

"so arsenal have asked me back and i'm going" i said. she's probably not going to like that.

"oh. what does that mean for us?" she asked.

"we can make long distance work right?" i said.

"yeah i guess" she said. "when are you going"

"uhm next week" i said.

"oh" she said.

"dont worry baby. we will be okay" i said. i held her hand reassuringly.

we sat on the sofa all day, cuddling and watching movies.

we made the most of our time together and before i knew it i was going back to england. i was going home.

me and my mum had packed everything up and our flight is tomorrow.

emma stayed the night and she's coming to the airport tomorrow.

i woke up with emma in my arms.
"morning darling" i said.

we got up and had breakfast. we drove to the airport and checked in.

i said a very emotional goodbye with emma.

"i'll see you soon darling" i said and me and my mum walked away towards our gate.

i'm going to miss emma. she's such a sweet person to be around.

we got called to board our plane and we sat in our seats.

when the plane landed, i sent emma a quick text.

me: hey em, we've just landed i'll text you when i get home xx
emma: okay, i'll speak to you later xx

we collected our bags and got a taxi back to our old house in milton keynes.

god i've missed this place. i opened the door and walked in. i wandered around the house remembering things from each room. i went upstairs and opened my old bedroom door.

my eyes fell upon something completely unexpected.