i'm right where you left me

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i woke up completely naked in an unfamiliar room. i looked at my phone and checked the time. 2am.

i heard a noise in the bathroom and panicked.

everything came rushing back to me.

i left the pub with a guy.
we went to a hotel together.
i thought he was taking me home. (stupid)
he got naked and i passed out.

i rushed around trying to find my clothes which were thrown all over the room.

i got them on and i felt my chest tighten. the pain in my ribs was also coming back and somehow felt a lot worse.

i rushed out of that room before he could come back.

i was on the street and begun to cry. what wasn't helping in the situation was my asthma starting to flare up again.

i unlocked my phone and looked through my contacts.

i can't ring leah. we're not on the best of terms right now and this will make it worse because she won't even give me chance to explain myself.

i decided the better option would be to call viv. she might not even be awake but it's worth a try.

"viv" i said as she answered.

"izzy where are you" she half shouted down the phone.

she could hear my sobs and my heavy breathing and immediately changed her tone.

"can you come get me" i asked.
"yeah love. just tell me where you are" she said.

i told her the name of the hotel and waited on the pavement.

around 10 minutes later she arrived in her pyjamas. i got in the seat and she gave me my inhaler.

"just breathe darling. let's get you home" she said.

i grabbed her hand and held it tight.

she kept looking over at me on the drive to check on me. i just kept looking forward. i felt numb. i've screwed up big time.

how could i be so stupid.

we drove back in silence.

i went inside and got into the shower to get the smell of alcohol and that guy off me.

i dread to even think the things he did to my body.

i scrubbed myself and got into my pyjamas, climbing into bed.

i lay in bed for hours. it got to about 4:30am when i got up and went to vivs room. i really need leah right now but i can't call her.

i knocked on the door and went in.

"your alright babe" she said sleepily.
"can i sleep with you" i asked shyly.
"of course love. come here" she said pulling back the sheet.

"you want to tell me what happened?" she asked.

"it's a lot" i said.

"well whenever your ready love" she said.

"uhh basically when i went back to see my mum. i went in and my dad was there" i said. it was dark but i could tell her expression dropped.

"he was acting all nice but i could see right through his little act. he wanted money off me. 10 grand" i said. "i told him no and he basically shoved me into the table and my ribs really hurt."

"there's like bruising and a lot of pain" i said.

"i didn't want to tell leah because i thought she would worry and panic and try get the police involved when it's not even that big of a deal compared to what he's done in the past" i said.

"okay and what happened tonight" she asked.

i don't think im ready to talk about that right now. i don't know when ill be ready to talk about it. it could be tomorrow it could be never.

she accepted my silence.

"you should speak to leah" she said.
"i know" i said.
"she's been worried about you" she said.
"i know" i said.

i leaned into viv and closed my eyes drifting off to sleep.

leah's pov
the next morning i spoke to alex about my troubles. she said that i should go speak to izzy and try to learn what happened but also apologise for leaving and not speaking to her.

i went to the shop and bought her a bunch of flowers and lots of junk food that we probably shouldn't be eating.

i went to her house and knocked on the door.

viv answered, still in her pyjamas.

"leah?" she said.
"is izzy here" i asked.

"yeah come in" she said letting me in.

"where is she?" i asked.
"my room. but somethings happened leah" she said. my heart dropped.

"she won't tell me what but i don't think it's good. you need to speak to her. be gentle and hear her out. if she won't tell you then don't push her. she needs to do it in her own time" she said.

i nodded and went up to vivs room.

i opened the door and walked in.

her eyes looked red as if she's been crying but she looked calm.

i went and sat on the bed and she begun to stir.

she started panicking and trying to clamber out of the bed.

"only me" i said, grabbing her hand and rubbing my thumb across the back of it.

she calmed down slightly and jumped into my arms, leaning her head on my shoulder. i gently rubbed her back as she cried into my neck.

"everything's going to be okay my love" i said.

"i'm sorry" she sobbed.

"what are you sorry for darling" i said. she doesn't have anything to be sorry for.

"should we go to your room. we can have a chat if you want. or we can just watch movies and stuff our faces with junk if your not ready to talk" i suggested. she sniffled and nodded her head.

she climbed off my lap and i gave her the flowers. she gave me a weak smile and we left vivs room.

she went to put the flowers in water while i went into her room and got into her bed.