i'm right where you left me

5

the next day is my first match. both jack and leah are coming to watch it. we walked it there since my mum doesn't have a car and my dad is at work.

we arrived and i found my team on the pitch. i sat with them and put on my boots.

the coach gave us some tactics and told us who is starting. we got into our positions and waited for the opposition. once they were ready, we kicked off.

on kickoff the striker passed the ball to me and begun to make a run towards the goal. i dodged the other striker and played a pass over their back line and our striker was through.

the keeper came out and she went around the keeper, calmly passing it into the empty net.
our scorer jamie, came straight to me, high-fiving me and hugging me.

we carried on and we're battering the other team. at halftime it was 5-0.

we went into the second half and continued in the same way. the coach took me off at 50 minutes since we only play 60 minute games.

the game ended in a 9-0 win for us. i got 4 assists and 2 goals.

"what a game. you play like that in the trial and they would have no choice but to have you on the team" leah said.

"yeah i hope so" i said while taking off my boots and putting my trainers back on.

"well done mate" jack said fist pumping me.

we walked home. jack went to his house and leah went to mine and waited for me to get dressed and then we're going out together.

she sat on my bed while i looked through my wardrobe.

"ugh i don't know what to wear" i groaned. leah stood up and looked at my clothes. she pulled out a hoodie and some jeans.

i undressed and put on the outfit, leah looked away as usual.

"done lets go" i said. i grabbed my bag with my purse and money and ran downstairs.

as i was about to exit the house my mum stopped me.
"izzy you need to eat something before you go" she said.

"i'm not hungry" i said.

"baby you've just played a football game, you need to eat" she said.

i groaned and walked into the kitchen. i picked up a banana and ate it then walked back to the door.

"can you have something to drink aswell. i don't want you to get dehydrated" she said. i sighed and went back in the kitchen to have a glass of water.

i went to the door.
"now can i leave" i asked. she nodded.
"bye mum love you" i said and walked out with leah.

we met jack outside and walked to the shopping centre. we walked around and looked in some shops. jack bought a new hoodie but me and leah did get anything.

we went to the food court and got mcdonald's. i ordered a 6 piece mcnuggets and a fanta.

we sat down and ate our food.

"iz do you want some of my chips?" leah offered. i shook my head.
"you sure? you've not eaten that much since your match. normally i'm starving after a game" she said.

"i'm fine, just not hungry i guess" i said (lied).

i'm not happy with my body so i try to eat as less as i can. i basically eat enough to survive.

i've been told several times by my dad when he's drunk that i should lose weight, or that i'm too fat, or that i'm ugly. that's had a huge impact on my mental health.

after we finished, we walked back to jacks house. we met his mum who was very nice. he had an older brother.

we went upstairs and his brother was coming out of his room.

"wow jack. 2 at once, didn't know you could do that. and they are pretty as well. good on you mate" he joked. me and leah looked awkwardly at eachother

"fuck off lucas. they're just my mates" jack said. lucas winked at him before going downstairs.

"i'm sorry about him. he's a dickhead sometimes. well a lot of the time" jack said.

we went in his room and sat on his bed. he put on a movie on his tv and we watched it while laying down.
i had my head on leah's stomach and my legs across jacks legs.

leah played with my hair, plaiting it and then unplaiting it.

the door opened and jacks mum walked in.

"kids dinner is made so come down whenever your hungry" she said.

"thanks mum we'll be down in a bit" jack said.

there's only ten minutes left of the movie. after that, we went downstairs to the kitchen.

his mum was putting it in our plates and told us to tell her when to stop.

she put two scoops of pasta in my plate and i said stop.

"are you sure honey?" she asked. i nodded and went and sat down at the table.

leah's pov
i noticed that izzy hasn't been eating a lot. i don't want to ask incase she doesn't feel comfortable telling me but i really hope she's okay.

after we ate, jack had to go out with his family so izzy invited me to hers. she didn't seem very sure about it though.

we crossed the road and knocked on the door.

"where have you been all day" a rough voice said to izzy.

"with my friends" she said nervously.

izzy grabbed my hand and pulled me into her room quickly.

"izzy is everything okay?" i asked.

"yeah why do you ask?" she said.

"i don't know, i don't want to make you uncomfortable or anything but i just noticed that you haven't been eating properly." i said.

"dunno le, i guess i'm just not hungry today" she shrugged.

"wanna play ps?" she asked trying to move on from the topic. i shook my head.

she sat on her bed and turned on her playstation. i lay down and put my head in her lap.

as she played, i built up the courage to ask another question.

"iz, how is everything with your dad" i asked.
"what do you mean" she said not moving her eyes from the screen.
"it just, when we got here he seemed quite angry that you went out" i said.

"yeah everything is fine leah. stop worrying about me" she brushed it away.

"iz. look me in the eye and tell me everything is fine." i said. she couldn't look at me.

"izzy look at me" i said. i sat up and moved her face to look at me. she had tears in her eyes.

"what's wrong babe" i asked wiping the tears away that dripped down her cheeks with my thumbs.

"everything, but i can't tell you" she said quietly.