i'm right where you left me

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i'm going in for my scan today. i tried to convince leah to go to training because i didn't want her to miss it because of me but she was having none of it. she phoned joe and asked if it was okay to come in for the second half where they would just be in the gym, to which he agreed.

leah drove us and kept her hand at my thigh.

when we arrived, i checked in and went to sit in the waiting area with leah.

"izzy cooper" a nurse called us after around 15 minutes.

me and leah got up. i held her hand as we followed the woman into her room.

i sat on the bed and leah sat on a chair.

she asked me a few questions and then got me to lay back for the scan.

it was a very cold sensation but felt oddly nice.

she rolled it over my belly and pointed at the screen.

"there's the head" she said.

"there's the feet" she said. i smiled at my tiny baby on the screen.

"do you want to know the gender?" she asked.

"no thank you. could you write it down though. we want to do a gender reveal" i said.

"yes of course" she said. "have you got any plans for it?"

"not really but i want it to be football related" i said.

"that's nice. i've seen a few people do football themed gender reveals" she said.

"yeah i've seen a few ideas online" i said.

"there you go" she said handing me the envelope.

"you've got a very healthy baby in there" she said.

"thank you" i said.

i could feel relief and also happiness inside me. i never thought that i would be in this situation ever.

she also printed another picture of the ultrasound for us.

"thanks so much" i said as we got up to leave.

"no problem lovelies. you'll need to book another scan between 18 and 21 weeks of your pregnancy. so maybe in about a month or so" she said.

"yes will do." i said.

we went out and got in the car.

"what idea have you seen for the gender reveal" leah asked.

"there's one where it's like a piñata kind of thing and you kick it and the colour comes out" i said.

"we could do it in the emirates and get all our family and friends to come down" i said.

"that's a really good idea" she said.

"i know" i said.

i held her hand and entwined our fingers.

timeskip a few months.

me and leah both had our birthdays. we're both 22 now and it's april 2019

today is the gender reveal. we planned it and got permission from arsenal to use the emirates pitch for the gender reveal and then have a party at our house after.

"babe does this dress make me look fat" i asked.

"no baby. you look gorgeous" she said.

i have a relatively big bump. it's around the right size for 6 months. but i can't help but feel slightly insecure about my body.