your watching tiktok's in bed. all of a sudden you hear the door slam in front of you. you look up and see colby, he looks upset
"hey how was your day?" you say as you put your phone down.
colby walks over to the bed and plops on top of you. wrapping his arms around you and tucking his head under your chin.
"today was not it." he complains
"i'm sorry." you frown and look down at him and he looks up at you. you then move some hair out of his face
"what can i do to make you feel better?"
"you're doing everything i want right now"
you cup his cheeks and kiss his forehead. he then drops his head back into your chest
you play with his hair because you know that's his favorite. after awhile he sniffles a little bit. you don't think much of it and continue to play with his hair
minutes go by and you realize he's trying not to cry. colby never ever cries, you've only seen him cry twice so something is definitely wrong.
"colby? are you okay?"
he clears his throat "yeah" his voice cracks
"no you're not. you're crying. what's the matter?"
he starts to cry but now it's obvious.
"it's okay. take your time." you pat his back
"my grandpa died" he cries
you feel his tears seep through your shirt and you hold him even tighter than before.
"it's not just that. this year has been shit. i keep telling myself that it could be worse but then the worse happens." he explains
"hey, look at me" you say softly
he looks up at you and his eyes are completely red, seeing him this upset makes you want to cry.
"everything's gonna be okay. things can only get better from now. and remember the one thing we learned this year?" you say as you wipe some tears off his face.
"everything happens for a reason." you both say together
"i feel awful cause i never got to say goodbye"
"that's not your fault! it was his time to go he's probably watching over you right now."
"i know i know im just gonna miss him"
"he loves you and he's so proud of you.. and so am i"
"thanks babe" he whispers
you start running your fingers through his hair again, combing through knots every so often. he lifts one of hands up and places it on your chest, he starts tracing shapes. he's still crying but not as hard as before
"is there anything else i can do to make you feel better?"
"just hold me"
you frown in the moment but try to stay strong for him. you hold the back of his head with one hand and rub his back with the other hand.
he basically cries himself to sleep. half an hour passes by and you watch his back go up and down with his breathing. in the background you see the bedroom door slowly open and a head peep through, it's sam.
"is he okay?" sam whispers
"i don't think so, he cried himself to sleep" you whisper back
"that sucks man he never cries"
"i know, he's really upset."
"do you need anything? looks like you're stuck sooo" he whisper laughs
"yeah could you get a blanket since we can't get under the covers?"
"yup be right back" he runs downstairs to get a big blanket, he comes back and lays it over you and colby.
"night, text me if you need anything." sam says as he leaves the room
"kk thank you!"
sam closes the door
you look down at colby once more, you see his rosy cheeks and nose and his face is tear dried.
you wipe off what you can gently with your sleeve before placing a kiss on his head.
you hold him tight as you pull the same strands of hair out of his face repeatedly till you fall asleep.
