yall really want angst so i'm trying my best lol. i'm so sorry i feel like all my angsty stories are the same but im really trying 😭 hopefully somebody likes this. anyways.. in which you cry yourself to sleep in colby's arms? (anon request)
after a long day of filming, colby finally comes home. as he pulls into the driveway, he noticed the house was unusually dark. usually, you have some lights on and would be waiting for him. he just figured you fell asleep early or something.
"y/n" he called out as he stepped inside. "baby i'm home" he spoke but the house was just eerily silent. he put his things down and then checked the kitchen but you weren't there. then he went to look in the living room to see if you fell asleep waiting for him but you weren't there either
he made it to your guys' bedroom and his heart sank after pushing the door open. he saw you curled up in a ball and just crying your eyes out.
"sweetheart, what's the matter?" he spoke calmly, kneeling down next to you and placing a hand on your back
you flinched slightly at his touch but then you turn your face towards him, your tear stained face breaking his heart even more
"i - i can't take it anymore colby," you manage to choke out between sobs. "everything is falling apart a- and i feel s-so alone"
he felt guilty in the moment. he realized he's been too caught up in work and that he didn't even notice that you weren't okay
"ah baby come here" he said softly, crawling on the bed next to you but you don't move. you just stay in a ball
"baby?" he whispered then put his hand over your head but again, you don't move, you just continue to cry and his heart just aches seeing you like this
colby sighs "i'm sorry i wasn't here seeetheart. i should've been. i've been so caught up with these meetings and hellweek coming up, im so so sorry baby, i should've noticed that you were sad. please tell me what's going on"
you don't respond again. you wanna talk to him but you know your sobs will take over
"come here" he kinda pulls you up and maneuvers your body to straddle his lap. and the second you were set in his lap, you wrap your arms around him so tight and cry into his neck
for a few minutes you couldn't speak at all. your sobs were too intense and colby held you tightly and didn't say anything, he just let you cry
eventually you start coughing from crying so hard. "oh baby" colby says, patting your back softly "its okay," he continues to pat your back "i love you, you hear me?"
you nod in response, then colby's hand meets the back of your head and starts stroking your hair "talk to me baby. please tell me what's wrong" he says
finally your crying subsided enough for you to speak. "everything," you said, your voice all trembly "work has been so stressfull, i feel like im constantly failing, plus all this hate im getting. it's too much colby" you cry
he listened intently, your shaky voice worrying him. he wishes he could just take all your pain away
"you're not failing baby," he says softly "you're literally one of the strongest people i know. it's okay to feel overwhelmed sometimes" he hugs you so much tighter, wishing to absorb all your pain in that moment.
you continued to sob in his shirt, your tears soaking through the fabric but he didn't care. his arms were still wrapped tightly around you and he gently rocked your bodies back and fourth.
for a second, he thought about what you said earlier and he pouts "i'm sorry you feel alone baby." he murmured "i promise to be more present from now on"
"i- i just feel so lost colby" you admitted, your voice barely above a whisper "it just feels like everything is slipping through my fingers and i can't do anything about it"
colby turns his head to kiss your cheek, his lips lingering for a sec. "i understand baby. and it's okay to feel lost" he assured you "i feel lost sometimes, everybody does, but you're not alone k? i'm here for you always. we'll get through this together"
you pull away from his chest to look at his face, he pouts again seeing how sad you look "i'm here." he repeated softly, wiping away some tears with his thumbs. "and i'll always be"
you nod as more tears roll down your face and you wrap your arms back around his neck
as the minutes ticked by, all that exhaustion finally caught up to you. "i'm so tired colby" you admitted
"then rest seeetheart. did you want me to lay you down?" he asks quietly to match your tone
"no" you sniffle "just hold me, please"
"i can do that" he says softly and he starts to rub your back up and down smoothly
slowly, your sobs began to even out, your breathing became more steady and the last of your tears dried on your cheeks. colby feels your grip on his shirt loosen and he gently adjusted your guys' position, lying down beside you and cradling you in his arms
colby stayed awake for a little while longer, watching you sleep, playing with your hair, listening to your breathing, feeling the rise and fall of your chest against his.
"i love you sweetheart"
"you're beautiful"
"im so proud of you"
"pretty girl"
"here for you always"
he whispered to you while playing with your hair.
as he allowed himself to close his eyes, he pressed one last kiss to your head "goodnight y/n" he whispered. even in his sleep, his arms remained around you, protecting you from the world
i'm still working on more requests i didn't forget dw bbgs. i'm sorry i said i would post more then i stopped! kinda lost motivation for a sec but i think im good now :) feel free to send more requests in that link!
