POV (Point of View)

Chapter 96: Two Sides of the Same Coin

TRIGGER WARNING: This chapter contains offensive languages, extreme torture, acts of violence, self-degrading, and psychological trauma. 

I will love you till the day I die.

The sound of faint snoring started to awaken a certain black-haired woman. When she slowly opened her eyes, she perceived the face of someone she has seen this close before. For a few seconds, she just stared at this man's handsome features who was also facing her direction. Same bushy brows, cheekbones, pinkish lips, fair manly skin tone, and slightly longer purple hair with blue highlights. The injuries he sustained when he was beat up also add to his charm for some weird reason. No matter how many months pass, he is still as handsome as he was before. As appealing as when she first laid her eyes on him.

Suddenly, a core memory got unlocked in her head.

"Let's live together. I can buy a house for us in any city of your choice. It can be in Kyoto, Osaka, Akita, I'll go anywhere with you."

"W-Why...Why would...?"

"I want to be with you everyday. I want to see you before I sleep. I want to see you when I wake up. I want to hear your stupid jokes everyday. I want to live under the same roof with you. I don't know...maybe, build a family with you, too if you'll have me."

"A-A-Are you asking me to marry you, Rin-chan?"

"Yes."

"W-Will you be okay with someone like me? I-I mean...I can be dirty and disorganized. I am clumsy. I'm...I'm loud and noisy. I-I eat a lot. I'm...I'm tone-deaf. I'm too plain and not stylish. I-Is that okay with you?" 

"Yes, I'm okay with you like that. I love you no matter what. Nothing will ever change that."

She remembers how touched and loved she felt when the man spelled those words to her with his genuine smile and kind voice. Like a promise he swore to never break. It was that day that she believed...that Rindou Haitani would be the man she wants to see waiting for her at the end of the altar. Her soulmate. But with everything that happened, can she still wish for something like that? Can someone as dirty and disgusting as her make a wish for someone to accept and love her? 

Without being able to stop herself, Sarina slowly reached for the man's face and whispered...If I tell you the truth...the whole truth...Will you still tell me that you love me no matter what?

She didn't even notice herself tearing up. She knew. There is no time to linger on the past. Much less undo a sin. A sin she knows that disappointed her passed Pops. Life isn't as easy as that.

What the hell am I even thinking? Why am I even hoping for this man or anyone to accept me? I don't need him. Aurelia Schreiber doesn't need anyone to love her.

She walked down from the bed and went to the shower room to clean herself up. Given that it was still dark outside and slightly chilly, she already knew that it is still so early. Once she was done, she walked towards the sink and picked up the products that fell on the floor because of her activity with Rindou last night.