Breaking him (BxB) 🔞

Chapter 35

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RYDER'S POV

I was starting to feel Jack very distant. A couple month had passed since River's confession, and I had been full of hope after it. The two subs had started to hang out more and talk deeply about the situation. They hung out together all the time, and it had made the enviorement so much peaceful and so much easy. I could finally be enjoying my time with my friends without worrying that my boy was going to beat or get beated up by Lesdger's.

My Master Dom friend also seemed more happy. River's behavior had changed so much, and it was so clear that it made thir relationships stronger. Even the other doms started respecting the blue haired sub more, realizing the couple was serious.

But Jack was suddenly different. His mind was gone all the time, it seemed like he was never listening, always on his little world. We would be having dinner together and he would stare at his food, play with it, and then proceed to eat it in complete silence. It was almost scary, the way his eyes would make him look empty inside. Every time I got the chance to maintain eye contact, I would try reading his face, but it was jut impossible. He wouldn't really answer my questions, and don't even think about maintaining a conversation. I had asked him a million times, but he would always say he was fine, and that it was just stress from classes. I think he had forgotten his boyfriend was a cop. And you can't just lie to a cop. Specially not to me.

Jack was just... gone. And I was terrified I was close to losing him. I felt helpless. I had talked to everyone and anyone I could think of. But it was just him who I really needed words from.

One night I couldn't stand it anymore and i broke down in tears.

Jack entered the bedroom and froze. He seemed like he wanted to say something, I could see his mouth slowly open. But he stayed quiet. And it only made me lose it more.

- Why are you crying? - he finally said.

And suddenly I was the one with no words. What was I supposed to say? If he wanted to leave me, there was nothing I could say at that moment to help that. I didn't want him to stay by my side just because he didn't want to hurt me. I knew I had helped him change, and part of me was sure that now that he wasn't so broken he was ready to go away and find someone else. I could have felt used, but i just felt broken. I needed him to be happy. And if happy meant without me, then it would need to be that way.

I finally calmeed down enough to talk, and I took a deep breath.

- I need you to be honest with me, Jackson, please. I need you to tell me why you're acting the way you are because I just can't take it anymore. - I paused and he remained quiet- I love you too much, you have no idea. I never knew I could love anyone like I do. And its breaking me to see you this way, not being able to do anything.

His mouth was still shut. I got up and got closer, putting my hands on his arms.

- Jack, please.

And he took a step back, getting my hands off him, and left the room. Then left the house.

My chest started to feel really heavy, and breathing got a lot harder. I grabbed my phone and pressed some numbers, I didn't really see what I was doing. I think I heard a voice on the line, but I just passed out.