Breaking him (BxB) 🔞

Chapter 37

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JACKSON'S POV

I woke up and I was in my old room, very confused. Then it hit me, everything that had happened and how I had just brokeb down in tears. While I was walking downstairs, I heard a voice that was a bit too familiar. I took a deep breath and made my way into the living room, starting to shake as I saw Asher just standing there.

- What are you doing here? - I asked.

- Oh I just noticed the outside decoration was really nice, and wanted to ask where you got your bricks from. - he said, making me want to punch him

- I swear I tried to tell him to not come in but... Hes scary - said my younger brother, and I sent him upstairs.

- I don't want to speak to you. -I said.

- Okay, no problem. The guy you need to talk to is not me, is your boyfriend, who, for your information, is laying in a cold bed in the hospital.

My eyes went wide and my heart skipped a beat. In the hospital? I started to feel the tears forming in my eyes.

- W-what? - I managed to say

Asher sighed, looking at the floor.

- How about we go on a little ride. We don't need to talk, but if you want to, I'll listen. And I can drive anywhere you wanna go.

All I could think of at the moment was my boyfriend. I needed to know he was okay. The feeling of guilt started to be too overwhelming and breathing got harder. Before I knew it I was having a panic attack. Asher was very quick, distracting me and somehow helping me focus on something else. I started to cry really hard, and I just let him hug me.

- There you go, let it out. - he was repeating - good job.

After I was a bit more calm and he had reassured me that Ryder was okay, I decided to take his offer and we left my house, getting in his car.

The first minuted were completely silent. Awkwardly silent. I thought he was gonna be as patient as he usually was and just remain quiet, but he was the one to speak first.

- Listen Jack, I don't know what happened between you two, but you need to talk about it. I understand you must be feeling something really difficult, but I know you love Ryder. Come on, everyone knows you two are perfect for eachother. - I didn't know what to say, so I let him continue while silently crying. - It's so clear. You guys are like best friends, you joke around all day, flirt every hour, and you just match eachother so well. Fuck it, I don't even know why you guys aren't even married yet.

That hurt me so much because he was right. Ryder felt so right. With him, I felt heard, I felt safe, I had so much fun, I could be myself, it was truly just perfect. And fuck it, I wanted to marry him. I did. Maybe not right away but, I definitely wanted to spend the rest of my life with that man. Who else if not him? There was no way I could even imagine not waking up next to Ryder every day, till forever fell apart.

- I found a ring. -I finally said.

Asher looked at me with the most confused face I had ever seen.

- Are you fucking kidding me? - he said

Wow. How sensitive.

He stopped the car and looked at me.

- You are telling me that you did all this little act because you found the fucking ring?

I was speechless. I didn't know how to feel, part of me was hurr bur I was mostly confused.

-  Oh my god Jackson... I swear... I told him it wasn't a good idea to hide it from you, but oh well who even listens to Asher, right?

- What are you talking about?- I finally said, my head about to explode.

- Sean is going to propose, and he didn't want Nick to find the ring because that boy is always in his business, so he gave it to Ryder. And the stupid ass guy you have for a boyfriend thought it'd be better to hide it from you so you wouldn't accidentally spoil it to Nick.

Welp. I was just stupid. I did feel relieved, but I was mostly embarrassed. I had ran out like a child, and now my boyfriend was in the hospital because of it.

- I didn't know... - I said

- Of course you didn't know, how could you fucking know? When that man gets out of that bed Im gon a beat his ass for not listening to me. Always the same bullshit. And who ends uo being right? I do. But no, of course, how are we gonna listen to you, Ash, you don't know anything besides torturing your little boy...

Asher went on a long rant and I didn't have the guts to interrupt him. So I just waited, rethinking all my life decisions, until we reached the hospital. And yeah, he was still talking.

- Umm, Asher... Where is he?

- Ah, yeah. Sorry buddy, room 104, 2nd floor.

- Thank you.