Jackson Williams is a troubled boy, always on the streets doing illegal stuff getting into fights and getting chased by the cops. But here is this one police officer that catches his eye, the young cop Ryder.
This is a bdsm relationship story. +18 p...
Why was I so stupid? Words just got stuck in my throat and I did what I knew best, run away. Like fucking always. Running away from my problems, avoiding them. But this time I was fucked. I had just ruined my life. Ryder was everything to me, and a I ruined it. All because of the goodam fucking fear of commitment.
A month prior to that day, I had found a little box in Ryder's dresser while looking for some socks. It had a ring inside, and I panicked. I didn't say a word about it to anyone. For once, i couldn't have Ryder thinking I didn't love him enough to marry him. And secondly, I didn't want anyone to think I was too much of a pussy.
Ryder was my life, and I had it very clear that I wanted to spend my life with him, but marriage just wasn't it. Marriage meant stuff I didn't like, because in my head it wasn't a good thing. Married was my mom tied up to my abusive dad. Marriage was legal papers. Marriage meant a family I couldn't start. Marriage was just full of expectations I wasn't sure I was able to meet.
Either way, it was all ruined now. I was in the middle of the streets and alone, regretting every decision made in my life. My phone started vibrating like crazy and I managed to open it with shaky hands. It was Nick who had been messaging me.
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I closed it back and started to cry. I cried for so long, I didn't realize it got dark. My only option was to go back to my house with my brothers, so that's where I was headed to. They both opened the door and I just fell into their arms, helpless.
After a long time just sitting on the couch with my older brother, my phone started ringing. I didn't want to look, I didn't want to talk. So I tirned it off and cried for a bit more, till I eventually just fell asleep from exhaustion.
RYDER'S POV
When I opened my eyes I was in a hospital bed. There wasn't anyone in the room and the overwhelming confusion and the memories from the situation took the best of me and I started crying. The machine indicated my heart rate was increasing a lot, and a nurse rushed inside.
- Sir, we need to keep you relaxed. I have some meds for...
- No. - I cut her off - Sorry, I don't need anything. I'll calm down.
I didn't even believe my words. And then I heard a familiar voice.
- Ryder, you're awake finally. You got us so worried. - Sean said while standing next to me. - Nick has been trying to contact Jack but that boy is completely out of signal. What the heck happened ?
I wanted to just say that I wish I had known. Because maybe then I'd know how to fix it. But instead I just broke down again, letting my friend hug me while the nurse was nagging me about some medication. I didn't care about anything. I needed my boy back.
