Catch Me When I Fall

Pretend

I'm assuming Tyrone is talking to my mom. I feel so bad for him. 

I hate that I have to be like this sometimes. I'll get over it, but I just need a moment to myself.

Thankfully, Tyrone understands that.

I just hope he doesn't beat himself up over this. He really didn't do anything wrong.

I hear his soft footsteps recede, and only once I'm absolutely sure he's gone do I look up, peeking over my arm.

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Within twenty minutes, I recover from my odd gay panic. My mom tells me that Tyrone's gone up to my room, so I head there, hoping to clear the awkwardness I accidentally put in him.

I step inside my room quietly, and find Tyrone on my bed, hugging one of my squishmallows. Khaipire is also beside him.

"Tyrone..." I say softly. He moves his head, but not enough to see me, nor does he turn around. "I'm really sorry... I don't know what happened but I didn't mean to act like that."

See? I'm totally fine now again.

I head over to the other side of the bed and sit on it. Tyrone looks kinds of tired, but he also looks a little sad.

"You didn't do anything wrong." I clarify. "I just had so much fun with you at the arcade and my stupid feelings keep getting in the way and I needed a moment to think because I just got overwhelmed by how nice you were and by how much fun we had. But then I kind of just blew things way out of proportion, and the worst part is I know, but it still happens anyway." I say, not bothering to clarify what I know.

"If anyone understands blowing things way out of proportion, it's me." Tyrone says, adjusting his position so he's more inclined to hear what I have to say.

I give him a tiny smile, then grab Tywolf and flop down on my side of the bed.

***Tyrone's POV***

I watch as Khai flops down next to me on the bed. His hair falls around his face, and he stares up at the ceiling, so I'm not sure if he notices me looking at him.

Why he is so hot suddenly?

He always has been, but now that we've bonded a bit, it seems even more so.

Probably because he gave me one of the best days of my life and helped me complete a milestone I've wanted since as long a I can remember.

Still, I feel like my sentiment towards him has shifted. He doesn't feel like a little brother I need to protect anymore. Or a clueless four-old.

He feels like someone I can confide in and be safe around.

I didn't know that being with another person could be so fun. Or maybe, it's just Khai. I don't regret anything of getting to know him.

However, I can't help but under lyingly worry that he's going to leave me because he can't handle being just friends. Or maybe, his crush on me will go away. 

For some reason, this possibility worries me just as much. I guess it's just if I lose him in any way...

I can't go back to being all alone again. Especially not now after I know what it's like to have companionship.

Somehow, I was strong enough to let Khai in, but I know I won't be strong enough to let him back out.

"What are you thinking about, Tyrone?" Khai suddenly asks me.