Game Over: Life's Over

Collect Dust

Hi, everyone! This chapter got lost in the mix when I was uploading chapters to Wattpad. I'm so sorry about that! Enjoy it now that I noticed it was missing.

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I hadn't felt so defeated after a doctor's visit since I was told I had the genetic mutation. Hopes for a future seemed to be diminishing as more and more changes kept occurring. I was a prisoner in my own body and there was nothing I or anyone else could do to stop it.

Theo was quick to get the booster seat for the car. He even went as far as to use the child safety lock on the back doors so he'd have to let me out whenever I was in the car. On top of all of the safety measures they were already taking, these were only going to add in taking away my independence.

Theo didn't make me use the booster seat on the ride home after we picked it up. He only made me sit in the backseat so it would be safer.

I went straight to my room once we got home. I kicked off my shoes and crawled into bed. I pilled all of the blankets I had on top of me so I drowned in blankets and darkness.

I didn't want to see anyone or talk to anyone. I just wanted to lay in bed and sulk about how awful my life was. I was allowed that after being told bad news, wasn't I?

I couldn't stay happy all the time. I couldn't be grateful for life when it wasn't a good one. I couldn't act like my condition wasn't ruining my life.

Just like the last time I got bad news, Theo checked in on me regularly. He brought me food that I picked at and changed my diapers every couple of hours. He didn't ask me any questions or try to get me to talk. He just let me know that he would be around if I needed him and let me have time to grieve and mourn on my own.

I missed playgroup because of my appointment. Then, I skipped it on Thursday. I wasn't up for talking to Soleil or Will about what was going on or trying to sound happy when I wasn't. Thankfully, Theo didn't force me to go.

I was asleep when Mom showed up. She walked into my room and set her bag by the door. She kicked off her shoes and then sat down on the edge of the bed.

"Hey, baby. Theo told me you needed some Mom time. I understand things have been hard for you lately and I'm sorry you're going through this. I wish I could make it easier for you. I wish I could take away the pain that you're feeling." She brushed her fingers through my hair. Surprisingly, that was what woke me up.

I rolled from my stomach to my back and inched closer to her. I rested my head on her leg and stared up at her.

"Have you eaten anything lately?"

I shook my head. I was starving but my depression was heavily outweighing my desire to eat. I couldn't force myself to eat when I was too sad to move.

"Do you want to go get something to eat? I haven't eaten in several hours and I'm starting to feel it."

"I'd have to... I don't wanna use the car seat."

She gave me a sad smile. "That's okay. We can get something delivered."

"Where's Eric and Theo?"

"I gave them the night off. I told them to go out and spend time together and I'd keep an eye on you."

I pushed myself up and tossed some of the blankets off my body. I stretched my legs out and felt the familiar feeling of a wet diaper between my legs.

I groaned and covered my face with my hands.

"What's wrong?"

"I need changed."

"You don't think I can do it? It's been a while but I still remember."