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51 - The stars untold story

51 - The stars untold story

Hyacinth's POV

Have you ever felt so angry at yourself but wanted to let it out on someone else?

That overwhelming rage bubbling inside, looking for an escape, a target?

Have you ever felt like you wanted someone to disappear from this world, and if given the chance to take their life, you'd do it without hesitation?

The darkness within you whispering that it would be justified, that their existence was the root of your misery.

I think I did...

I did it and I don't feel guilty about it.

More like scared of how the person next to me would react. The realization that I crossed a line, one that I can't uncross, looms over me.

Would she feel disgusted?

Frightened?

Remorseful?

What would she take me for?

A monster?

A protector?

Or something in between?

Have you ever felt like you've been awakened from such a frightening dream where you have seen a dead body right in front of you?

The grotesque reality setting in, replacing the fog of rage with cold, stark clarity.

Like you just saw it on the ground, but then when you look at yourself, you see blood all over your body.

It's not yours, it's from the person who's lying on the floor, lifeless and eyes bloodshot. Their final moments froze in time, a haunting tableau.

I just killed someone and I just realized it now.

Anger drives me in, sadness hides in, and mercy disappears from my vocabulary.

The lines between right and wrong blur, leaving only the raw, unfiltered truth of what I've done.

Everything feels so lightweight, as if I'm just a lost soul in this vast world.

Detached from reality, floating in a sea of confusion and regret.

A dead body right under me, hand trying to reach someone who I think is stunned and now frightened.

Looking at her, she has this stunned look, eyes widened and whole face reddened.

Her presence anchors me, a stark reminder of what I've become.

"Fuck, Hyacinth." Her voice cuts through the silence, filled with disbelief and horror.

Cephues looked at me, her eyes wide with a mix of shock, fear, and something else-something I couldn't quite identify.