Mama's Boy

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-TW: mention of NSFW-
*Emily*

Today I decided to not go into work. My cramps were through the roof so I decided to stay home for today. The doorbell rang and the boys were racing to see who would get there first.

"RILEYYYYYY" Leah squeals as the door opens. She leaps on Riley causing him to fall backwards, both of the giggling. "I missed you" Riley says it back as he hugs her.

"Hey, thought you might appreciate the company since your not feeling your best. I brought some sweet treats and Leah's hot water bottle." Damon smiles at me, one hand holding a shopping bag and the other holding Charlie's hand. Charlie has a soft scowl and tear marks down his cheek. Leah is probably making his life hell...

I let them in, Leah and Riley run upstairs to go and play in his nursery. Russo stays close by my side as me and Damon go into the kitchen. Charlie has no choice but to come with because Damon hasn't let go of his hand. "You two can go and sit in the living room while the adults talk" Damon says finally letting go of Charlie's hand. Charlie speeds off to the living room wheras Russo hesitantly leaves me to go sit with Charlie.

Damon takes out a dairy milk chocolate bar, ready made iced coffee, haribo and a hot water bottle with a baby pink fluffy cover.

"Thank you so much, I have been literally dying all morning" I laugh softly. He just smiles at me, I don't know if it's just the hormones but his smile is just... Wow.

"Thought the littles could use company and so could you. Charlie has been a nightmare since we took him back, I don't know about Russo but Charlie really gets on my last nerve" Damon rubs the back of his neck.

"Russo has actually adjusted so well, it's almost like he was meant to be a little. Him and Riley are Mama's boys. Maybe Charlie just isn't a Daddy's boy" We both laugh.

"Well it doesn't matter, I have some friends coming in a few minutes to take the littles off our hands and we can have today all to ourselves" He is literally an angel come to life. Don't get me wrong, I love my boys so much but... A break sounds nice right now, just for a few hours while I'm feeling kinda shitty.

After about an hour, four guys show up and pick up the kids. Russo and Riley give me a kiss before going, waving until I can't see them anymore. The house has never been so quiet...

"I also got you a final gift" Damon walks into the living room holding two wine glasses with a bottle of white wine. The bottle POPS open and the liquid fills both glasses. The wine is sweet with a gentle burn as it goes down. We are laughing and drinking, the wine goes and we turn to beer.

We are laughing and laughing but then we are kissing... And kissing, kissing. He smells like Sandlewood and his lips are soft against mine. His hands grab my waist pressing me against him. My hands go round his neck. I'm struggling to breath but it's worth it for this moment.

The door knocks and we separate. I'm starting to feel sick so I rush up the stairs to puke my guts out. After a good half an hour I'm able to get up and get in my bed. Wrapping myself in the blankets, maybe drinking when I was already feeling kinda sick wasn't the best idea...

"Mommy, can we come cuddle with you?" I nod and open my arms. I'm laying on my side so Russo cuddles up behind me and Riley cuddles into my arms. They start watching a move while I just lay, my head is pounding and I feel so sick and groggy.

-the next morning-

My head is still a bit sore but definitely better. I change Riley's and Russo's diapers while they are asleep. I nearly have a heart attack when I find Damon sleep on the couch. He groans in his sleep but luckily doesn't wake up, it makes sense he stayed here though, drinking and driving isn't wise. I make myself a coffee, I sip it as I'm trying to clear this headache that's lingering.

Hands move round my waist, a head rests on my shoulder. "Morning" his voice is deeper than usual. He must be really tired...

"M-morning, coffee?" I keep my gaze down. He has such piercing brown eyessssss.

"No thanks, I don't drink it. Tea though would be nice" I would move to make it but he his his arms wrapped round me firmly. I don't move, I don't want to move. Sandlewood, I'm brought back to our kiss. He slowly let's go and I put the kettle on.

"MOMMY" One of the boys are calling out for me. "MOMMYYYYYYYY"

"IN THE KITCHEN BABY" Footsteps hurry downstairs and Riley walks into the kitchen. "Hello my sleepy baby, did you miss me" He rubs his eyes and grips my shirt gently.

"Mommy, uppies" He yawns and of course I pick him up. Giving him a kiss on the cheek. I manage to make Damons tea one handed, he seems to like the tea as he is sipping it quietly.

Me and Riley go upstairs because I couldn't handle the awkwardness in the kitchen. The kiss we shared replaying in my mind over and over and over like a broke record. Remembering how his lips felt, that sandlewood smell he has, the look in his eyes, the feel of his hands on my waist...

It would never work between us, but maybe. A part of me hates myself for even wanting it. Do I even want it. He is so handsome but 4 littles in one house. WHY IS THIS SO HARD?! Do I even like him like that, no, no, no. I can't like him like that.... Can I??