RUDRADAMINI

A plan to reconcile

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Rudra POV- 

I barged into my chamber, huffing angrily, my rage palpable in the chamber. I glanced around at a few attendants in the chamber fixing something. One glare at them and all of them immediately sauntered out with their heads bent down, in fear. I eyed them as they left the room. As they departed, I turned and closed the door with a loud bang.

AAAAAAAAAAAAARGGGGGGGGGGHHHHH!!! I yelled out in frustration as I angrily threw my shawl. My anger coursed in every cell of my body, making me extremely fidgety and mad.

I pushed the ceramic show vase off the stool near the door, with a loud crash, it broke into pieces. Still the anger in me persisted, although a little subsided.

I paced around my room in a fit of rage. How could she think I cheated on her!! And that too with someone who was the reason for my heartbreak....my belief in love had almost vanished... That's when I met her....still, she didn't even listen to me once.... decided what it was without hearing me.

After all the promises I had made!! She didn't believe me!!? My heart was bursting with pain so intense, I couldn't get rid of it, nor could I do anything about it. It was a pain that was meant to cause immense suffering to the the person enduring it. And I thought about how I had declared that I wouldn't come near her ever, and that I would leave her.

Did I do the wrong thing by telling that. I was filled with an intense dread. The loss of the love of my life was too much pain to bear. I chuckled to myself darkly, I had already endured it once, what was once more.... But this was meant to last forever, should have lasted forever.... But my cruel twisted fate snatched this from me.

I slumped down to the ground on my knees, my hands rested on my knees defeatedly. This was it, my fate, I was destined to be alone. No one was going to love me for life.....This was it. Tears welled up in my eyes, and I cried out, wailed loudly. 

How long did I cry, I didn't know. I just sat in the middle of my room, sobbing my heart out, until my eyes, heart, every pore of my body hurt and felt defeated. The pain in my body was immense...I cried until the pain reached every fiber of my body...This is I am destined to live, in immense utter pain.

The door of my chamber tapped, I ignored it. I didn't want to see or talk to anyone. I just wanted to stay alone, drown in the abyss of pain.

Simha....please....open the door, It was Bhadra. I didn't want to face him now. His faith in my love....instilled my faith in love too. It lead to the biggest heartbreak of my life. Somewhere in my heart, I had begun to blame him too. I knew that it was wrong, still, my mind had fogged up, unable to think rationally.

Go back Bhadra, I don't want to talk to anyone, I said with gritted teeth. Anger pulsed through me in oceanic currents.

Please Simha, once, talk to me, I'm concerned, I beg you, he said desperately, which irritated me more. But he sounded teary eyed, denying my long time best friend and brother was not good, I grudgingly made my way to the door, my eyes red and burning and unlatched the door.

I immediately bent down to pick up the pieces of the broken vase. I didn't even look at him enter. He stood at the entrance, contemplating what to tell me. I let him take his time, I just knelt down to not look at him, I was lost in my own thought, that I didn't even pick up the broken pieces.