The Summer Of 1993

Pregnant At The Chrsitmas Formal

The Christmas formal was a big deal. It was the weekend after finals. No one "made sure" I had a date and I was fine with that. I was interested in an Ep who moved here from Wyoming. He was older, a hockey star and had aged out, but was waiting to play professional hockey in our city.  He was actually nice to me and I thought to myself, once the baby is born and I get in shape, I could pursue him.  Seth Stevenson.   He even danced with me.  I hoped it wasn't weird because by then, little one liked to move.  He and I could talk.  I told him about my summer and what happened.  He was very sympathetic.   I never said the name but I said his last girlfriend was well known.  I think he "knew" and years later it would come to fruition why I went back to his apartment with him and became a fuck buddy of sorts.  I thought we were dating. 

    "Who is the dad?"  He asked.  "I won't tell."  He said sitting close to me.  He didn't share his "secret" until years later.  
"Promise you won't?"  I asked. 
"Johnny Depp."
"Oh my God!  Someone as cute and innocent as you?"
"I am not cute.  I reached 166 yesterday."
"His far along are you?"
"Sox months."
"You look adorable."
"Not really.  Johnny felt sorry for me."
"I doubt that."

   I wondered how Johnny was doing.  I felt bad for hi. With River dying at his club and I saw him on mtv and he looked awful.   I touched my belly.  I was sure this child would have deep brown eyes and dark hair.   Jamie, my date, said, "He is totally digging you."  I didn't know why, but I decided to roll with it.   He asked me what I was doing after the dance.  I said, "Taking my date home."  I pointed at Jamie.  "Are you a lesbian?"  He seemed really eager.  I shook my head,  "I think we should go to brunch tomorrow."  I was excited and in a way if he was into ugly chicks.  

   Through the formal, sisters asked if I was okay and winking at me.   The sisters had a lot of questions.  We danced like crazy and the baby seemed to like it.  After the formal was over, Serb came with us to E Street.  I saw Wade, a friend of mine.  We hugged.  "This is new," he said.  I told him, "I had a fling over the summer."  He looked at Seth.  I shook my head.  "He is well known in Hollywood,". I told him.  He shrugged.  It was loud.   It was a cold, snowy night.  It was magical.  

   Seth walked us to our car.  He said he would pick me up at eleven and they would do brunch.   Jamie looked at me. 

    "He likes you," she said.
"Why?  I am fucking pregnant."
"Doesn't seem to bother him and you are a cute pregnant girl."
"I think there is something there."
"Like what?"
"I told him who I was with.   Do you think he is gay?"
"He is too cute to be gay.  Maybe he likes babies and would be a good dad."

    I went home and went to bed.  The next day,  my parents asked if I wanted to go to church.  I said, "No.  I have a dare for brunch."  My mom looked at me and said, "Well, at least you won't get pregnant.   You looked adorable last night.  Too bad you are pregnant."  She walked out.  I watched "The Real World".  Little one was resting,  but I danced pretty hard.  I patted my belly.  Little one sort of stirred.   I got dressed as cute as I could, and Seth picked me up at eleven and we went to brunch.  He asked me some weird questions. 

    "So, you were with Johnny Depp?"  He asked as he ate a piece of bacon.
"Yes."
"That is so cool.  What is he like?"
"He is a shy, nice guy, a bit awkward."
"As are you."
"Sorry."
"I like it."

    They talked about life.  He told me .  "Wanna go to my place and watch movies?  Mom and dad are out of town."  It would be better than, "What are you going to do when the baby comes?"  They watched "A Few Good Men" then it happened.  He began kissing her.  "You taste so sweet," he told me.  "Well, I ate pancakes."   He kissed me again.  He grabbed my boobs.  "I am never seen a real pregnant woman naked," he said.   He smiled and kissed me again.   "Do you want to see me naked?"  He said, "Oh yes."  I took off my clothes as he did mine and he was even bigger than Johnny.  He kissed me and said, "I want to."  He wasn't a lover like Johnny.  In fact he went down on me for a few minutes and then just started having sex with me.  It hurt.  He wasn't as good as Johnny, but he was only twenty two.   I sort of came but it was halfassed and I felt frazzled.   I stayed for most of the afternoon and we did it two more times.  Then he asked me the weirdest question.  "So, like yeah, have you been with anyone else but Johnny?"  I shook my head.  "He doesn't have any diseases because I was checked for them."

   He drove me home as the sun was setting.  He said he had a nice time and wanted to know if I would come over and watch movies with him. I told him I would.   It was better than sitting at home with my parents, who were wondering where I was,  I sat down to supper which was soup and bread.  They asked me about this guy and I said, "We just watched movies."  My mom said, "I hope that is it."  I lied and said yes.  I went into my room and watched movies.  I had to work the next day from 11-4.   This was my new life for a few weeks and then back to school.  I was due around spring break and wondered when that was going to happen.  

   It was going to be an interesting Christmas for sure.