Reach out for me - TNN Story

Chapter 42 - Healing

A/N - Just a heads up this chapter will mention grief and different options for coping with grief. This will have some jumps in time too.

Grief affects many people in different ways and I hope however you cope with your grief, that this helps you in any way possible.
This is through the timescale that healing starts in September and ends in October.(I know it is a smaller scale but for the story it has to be)
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Many people sugarcoat grief and say that it'll be easy, some say that grief helps rebuild yourself as a person. Yet many also say that grief hits others in various forms and ways, some more physical than emotional or it can occur the other way around. Yet when many also discussed the matter, they seemed to not mention the toll it takes on a single human being in their life.

So many parents would come up to the three giving dead unsolicited, to the point where it gnawed and irritated them the more they got.

It started off with the odd comment saying how the death of Mabel was "a silver lining" and that at least she knew she could get pregnant. Then people started giving Mia and Charlotte 'needed advice' saying to them that they needed to focus less on ivf, some saying that it is drastically terrible and it's not worth using it, just to try for a baby. It hurt them, knowing that's what they'd think about, many asked how they could even afford it when they didn't know the real truth.

Why should they expose the truth?

But after Maeve woke up in a shallow cold sweat in the middle of the night, she knew that she needed some help. She wanted some help, for the sake of herself, her relationship with Charlotte and Mia but in the back of her mind, it played continuously that she needed to do this for Mabel, she wouldn't want to see her in pain, so why should she see her mummy in pain?

Looking around their dimly lit rouge bedroom she lay inbetween both of them, softly padding her fingers into the women, "Amelia...Amelia..." Maeve softly spoke grabbing her hand, a low grown hisses out of the redhead as she sits up and tucks a strand of hair from Maeve's face.

"What's the matter sweetheart?.." she looks into the darkened brown eyes, sighing Maeve grabs onto Mia's hand, "I don't want this to go on... me drowning us down, me being a burden-" "You aren't a burden" Mia interrupts, "I am. And I want to get help, I want to finally heal.. but I don't want to forgot our Mabel." She finally confessed and burst into tears. Grabbing her protectively, Mia soothes her into the curve of her own shoulder and wraps her arm instinctively around her back - running the pads of her fingers across Maeve's. "...I want t-to go to get help...." Maeve muffles between sobs, wetting Mia's tank top. A soft hum came out of Mia's mouth, to acknowledge Maeve's response.

Sitting up further to look at her, Mia glances at Maeve and she wakes up Charlotte. "Hm? What's the matter?" She rubs her eyes and leans in onto Mia's other shoulder. "Maeve wants to start the process of healing... to get help. Therapy char" Mia softly smiled at the two. They were honestly were happy that Maeve wanted to have professional help. To many it may have seemed that they're being too much, yet many times Maeve would wake up in a hot sweat and would explain that she is way too nervous to even think about doing something like this. So when she finally built up the courage to accept help, they were honestly thrilled and proud.

"How about I sort this in the morning and we will get you a session after work? I know a person who will have free sessions." Mia rubs her back.

Maeve looks between her girlfriends, clearly something bothering her about this, "what's wrong sweetheart?" "..I don't want to go in alone..." Maeve pauses anxiously scraping at her skin, slowly grating the flesh becoming more red as she continues to speak, "..I didn't loose Mabel on my own. I don't deserve to-" Mia and Charlotte stop Maeve as they notice what she's done to her arm, "Baby you're hurting yourself...you lay in the middle of me and Mia.." Charlotte looks at her and lifts her up and plonks her in the middle of the two and they fall asleep.
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