“Shut up you little bitch!”
“No, you shut the fuck up and get your ass off that chair!”
“You don't speak to me that way, young lady. I'm your mother!”
“Being my mother doesn't mean that you're allowed to be a shameless whore, lying drunk on the couch at this time of the morning!”
“Force me to stop then.”
“You know I used to think dad was a bad person but now I see why he left you. And you really deserved it.”
“You don't know what the fuck you're talking about...”
“I don't even wanna know the full story! I don't care. All I know is that you're a disgrace of a mother, of a woman, if a person.
“Look at yourself, look around. Your teenage son sells and consumes drugs. He ditches school all the time, flunks his classes, goes off with his bad friends stealing and…and all this is because he doesn't have someone to guide him and be there for him emotionally.
“I'm trying my best to help him, to talk to him, be there for him. It doesn't reall work much. He needs you to be a mother. He doesn't need an alcohol addict who sleeps around with different men each day and neglects herself and her family.”
“You wouldn't understand.”
“Understand what mom?”
“Your father never loved me.”
“How would he love someone like you?”
“I was the best wife anyone would ask for. I loved him, I was loyal, hardworking. He was the one who slept around with women. If I tried to confront him about it he would tell me that if I ever spoke a word about it to him, he would file for a divorce and…I didn't want that.”
“I didn't know that…”
“Of course you didn't.”
“But…then why did you guys file for the divorce in the end?”
“I couldn't stand it anymore! I would literally see him on our matrimonial bed, with another woman and he would tell me to get out! What the fuck did you want me to do?”
“Oh…”
“ Look, Taylor, I'm trying my best–”
“No, mom, you can't say you're trying your best. You are trying but you're not trying your best. There are people that have it worse than you but you'd think their lives were perfect. You are a mother. You have children. We're supposed to be your responsibility. As a mother you should take it upon yourself that no matter what's you would be there for your children. And we would also be there for you. We'll be here for each other…”
“No one has ever been there for me. I don't know how to be there for others.”
“Then you learn. Look at me. In the beginning of the divorce, I was a mess. But I found people, my friends, they were there for me. And it's not even mandatory for you to have someone. You can be there for yourself. Infact everyone should know how to be there for themselves.”
“I'm sorry, Taylor. I'm just not okay…and I don't know what to do.”
“Mom, get yourself back up. Stop your sleeping around, stop drinking, look for a job, be a mom. Marcus and I will help you as much as possible. We all have to be here for each other, okay?”
“But how do I stop feeling like a mess? Am I not enough? Am I not lovable? Was there something wrong with me? What?”
“Mom, I promise it’s not your fault. You are lovable and you are enough. Just because dad was that kind of person doesn't mean you're worthless. You can go out if you want and look for someone who would truly love you and I know that's not going to be easy but I'm telling you the truth.”
“I love you both. And I just don't deserve you...”
“Mom, that's not true. You do deserve us. It's hard. For all of us. But we can all support another and we'll be fine.”
“Okay, but where do I even start?”
“You can start by stopping all the bad habits you have. Try to be responsible. We can all try our best to act like a normal family. Please.”
