Glassheart but realistic

Part 28 - Chloe's guilt

Chloe pov:

I can't believe I snapped at Red. This is so unlike me. Usually, I'm calm, especially around  Red. She looks down a little sad and defeated. Audrey noticed our state.

Audrey: Ok, well, I wanna try something here, Red. Can you go sit outside for a while so I can speak to Chloe alone? Maybe 20 minutes?

Red nods and leaves the room. I hope that whatever Audrey has planned works. Then Audrey faces me again.

Audrey: ok Chloe, may I know what Red was talking about true?

I nodded and sighed.

Chloe: I haven't been feeling like myself much no.

Audrey: And when did you notice that starting to happen?

Chloe: Um, just 1 question before we continue... if I told you something, I don't want Red to know, you won't tell her, right?

Audrey: I won't tell her anything you're uncomfortable with, I'm here to help you too, Chloe, not just Red.

Chloe: ok, well... one day after my practice, I kept thinking about Red's looking glass her mom gave her.... it felt so magnetic that I needed up stealing it. I went in the hallway and opened it. I saw Red, and I had some sort of argument, and it ended with me accidentally pushing her off the balcony out of anger.

I wiped the few tears that were in my eyes before continuing the story.

Chloe: i then shut the mirror and went back I side and stole her watch. The watch then brought me to February 13th. To where I followed our future selves on their date they had planned for valentines Day. At the date Red proposed, but my future self said no. Red ran off, but I stayed and talked to my future self. But when I chased Red back to the dorm, she was found unconscious on the bathroom floor. So me Uma and future me went to the hospital. Future me confessed and after that we re did the date where future me proposed. I came back, and I felt fine, but then Red noticed the visitors' bracelet they gave you, and she kept wanting to know, but I don't think she should.....

Audrey: Well, it looks like you went on an adventure for sure. But it also seems like Red knowing your adventure isn't the issue here.... To me, it honestly sounds like you're more worried about Red knowing what you did in the mirror. Am I wrong?

I took a moment to think. She was right. Nothing in my story felt like something i would keep from her.

Chloe: I just can't see myself ever doing such things, especially to her. I would never push her off the balcony. Never.

Audrey: I know Chloe, you are a very sweet girl who loves to help. But life isn't perfect, and you also can't always be perfect. It's ok to make mistakes.... I like to say it's the intention behind the actions that matter the most. From what you told me about your story, you didn't do that. And you went in time and stopped your future self from doing it too. Red booked this appointment with me today because she was worried about you. She cares about you, Chloe. So when I hear that you're keeping this guilt about something that doesn't even end up happening, I also get worried. You shouldn't let guilt run your life. Guilt can bring a person down so fast and easily,  but I want you to win this battle. Ok?

Chloe: I understand... I honestly didn't think about it that way at all. I was just feeling bleh for a few days, and it wouldn't go away. Now I know that it's guilt. I now see what Red sees. Can we let her back in? I think it's time I come clean to her. I don't want to keep this from her anymore.

Audrey nods and opens the door, letting Red in. Red sits back beside me but doesn't say anything.

Audrey: Thanks for joining back in Red. I was able to help Chloe a little more on her issues.