Fiendish

Chapter 24

Like an astronaut that's scared of heights, with a heart that's beating at the speed of light.

-Bea Miller, Fire N Gold

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Carmen's Pov.

"Tell me you aren't that stupid?"

I sat on the edge of Julie's bed and tugged at my hair. Julie glared at me with a protective fire that only a close friend can give.

"It's not me being stupid." I mumbled as I began to feel a little bit stupid under her gaze.

"Then what is it because if I were you I wouldn't even be speaking to him after seeing his ass with another girl." Julie asked a matter-of-factly, making me more stressed and more aggravated.

"How's Luke's girlfriend doing?" I snapped and regretted it once I saw Julie flinched like I slapped her.

"Wow." She muttered, her earlier fire gone and replaced with hurt and pain. Guilt and regret made a home in my chest and my own gaze softened.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean that." I apologized quickly and she shrugged her shoulders.

"I...I'm sorry, too. I shouldn't have...I shouldn't have been angry with you. I had that coming." Julie said, looking away from me and playing with her fingers.

My guilt slapped me hard on my face and I moved toward her. I hugged her tightly and she welcomed my embrace with her own one.

"I shouldn't have said that. I was out of line and I didn't mean to hurt you." I said and I heard Julie sniffle. "I was just frustrated and annoyed. But you're right."

Julie pulled away from me and wiped her face. She gave me a sad smile.

"I just don't want him to hurt you."

"I know." I said sadly. "I don't want to hurt but he's...he's different. I don't know how to explain it but I just have hope."

Julie nodded her head in sudden understanding than looked me directly in the eyes. She took my hands and the way she held them reminded me of my mother.

"I hope you have enough hope for him and yourself." Julie said and tears began to slowly form in my eyes. "Because, Carmen, hoping is an amazing thing but it's so damn hard."

I closed my eyes as I processed her words. She was right, hoping was hard. Hoping could be so hard but also so worth it. Hoping could be a blessing and a curse, especially if you might be hoping for the wrong person.

For the next few hours I stay in Julie's room. She finally spoke to me about Luke and then fell into a deep sleep. I soon made my way back to my room and stared up at the ceiling. I closed my eyes, trying to sleep, but soon gave up.

He'll come around. He still has some light in him. I know it.

Anne's voice filled my mind and I groaned in frustration. I wish I could fully see what my own professor sees. I wish that I wasn't scared to give Harry hope. Right now, I want nothing more than to see what Professor Cox's sees...

He'll come around. He still has some light in him. I know it.

Harry's POV.

"I win, you asshole, so pay up."

I raised my eyebrows at Louis's outburst. Niall threw fifty bucks at Louis and rolled his eyes.

"You just got lucky." Niall stated, mumbling some extra shit under his breath.

"What was your bet about?" I asked, bringing the cold beer up to my lips. The taste was familiar on my tongue and it almost calmed the nerves that fired in my body.

I made my way to Niall's place after I left Carmen. That girl was driving me fucking insane and I needed to get her beautiful face out of my mind. This party and this alcohol was suppose to get her off my mind, yet it was doing the exact opposite. Her face was flashing through my head over and over again. It was annoying as hell but I couldn't stop it, no matter how hard I tried.

"If you were with Carmen before you got here." Louis smirked. "And I got an easy fifty bucks out of this fucker." Niall shot Louis a bird and rolled his eyes.

"You just got lucky so shut up." Niall snapped playfully. "It's never going to happen again, bet on that."

"I'm not lucky, I'm blessed." Louis said, crossing his arms along his chest. "I bet you Harry was just thinking about Carmen."

"I was not." I lied bluntly. If anything, I couldn't stop thinking about her. The way she laughed and smiled. The way her innocence shined when I touched her body. Just thinking about her moan sent heat straight to my dick and I had to clench my jaw.

"Did you hear me, Styles?"

I looked up at Niall and raised my eyebrows in annoyance. His jaw held an ugly bruise that I gave him and I almost smile. The memories from that night pissed me off all over again. This beer wasn't doing shit to me.

"What?" I snapped, clenching the cold bottle in my hand.

"Damn, he's whipped." Louis muttered with a small laugh.

"I'm not whipped so shut the fuck up." I snapped at him. Both of them really.

Louis flinched, held up his hands in surrender, and turned around, downing his the rest of his own beer.

"What I said is that Zayn wants to talk to you." Niall told me and my blood started boiling. I snorted at that and shot Niall a look.

"Fuck Zayn, he can rot in hell." I spat as I took another swig of my beer. It was slowly turning warm, but I ignored that.

"You don't mean that." Niall replied. "You and Zayn have been friends for a hella long time so-"

Anger flooded my body and I grabbed Niall by his collar. His blue eyes widened in shock and he tried pushing me away. I guess this was a little too much but I didn't have a fuck.

"Don't fucking tell me what I mean and don't mean." I said through clenched teeth.

"Harry, calm down." Louis shouted over the music and I let go of Niall. I grabbed my beer and walked away, angry and fucking frustrated. I walked upstairs and sat on the top step. I downed my beer and dropped it on the steps. This was bullshit. I came here to get Carmen out of my head. I came here to get the guilty feeling out of my chest. I most definitely did not come here to talk about fucking Zayn.

"Styles."

I looked up to see Savannah smirking at me. I rolled my eyes as this slut sauntered over to me. I groaned, wishing I would have stayed with Carmen.

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[Status: Edited and Revised]