Fiendish

Chapter 38

It's hard to do the right thing, when the pressure coning down like lightning.

-Justin Beiber, I'll Show You

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Carmen's Pov.

I stood in the airport with Terence. I didn't have classes today which was a true blessing, but I still had to wake up really early. It was now fifteen minutes until 6:30am and Terence stood by the entrance toward his plane.

We didn't talk much during the ride here which I was thankful for. I couldn't get Harry out of my mind. Last night scared the crap out of me and Harry's arms felt incredibly safe. The way he kissed me made me feel so special and unraveled me. I wanted to see him more than anything right now, but when I looked at Terence guilt washed over me.

"I'm sorry, Ter." I apologized and he looked surprised and confused.

Terence furrowed his eyebrows as he stretched his arms out, yawning.

"What are you sorry for?" He asked, worry took over his face and I crossed my arms. The flourescent lights were almost painful and it was surprisingly chilling in this airport.

"You came to New York to see me," I said, guilt constricting my heart. "Yet we didn't even hang out that often and I've been nothing but selfish this entire-"

"Wow, wow, slow down, Speedy Gonzalez." Terence joked and I smiled.

Terence grabbed me by my arm and pulled me to his chest. He squeezed me tight and there were moments like this where I was happy to have an older brother like him.

"Look, Carmen," Terence said, his chin resting on top of my head. "Even though we didn't spend a lot of time together, I still had fun here. And, let's face it, if we did spend my time here one hundred percent together, we would have probably murdered each other."

I laughed against his chest and squeezed him tighter. I hated it when he was right, even though he was right almost always. Terence and I let go of each other as it neared the time of our separation. Sadness flooded my chest and I forced a smile to stay on my face.

"You're doing a get job here, Car." Terence said, picking up his suitcase off the floor. "Stay safe and if that Harry guy drives you crazy, I'll fly back down here to kick his ass. I promise."

I blushed at Terence's words. Last night when I said that I was in love with Harry, Terence was shocked. He came into my room to talk about him, but was barely able to get a coherent sentence out.

"Thanks." I said and gave him one last hug before I watched him walk toward his ride back home.

When Terence was out of sight, I began to walk to my car. I missed my brother already even though I'd never tell him that. Once I made it to my car, I drove out of the surprisingly packed parking lot and made my way home. My fingers tapped on my steer wheel as Twenty One Pilot's Stressed Out played on the radio. It felt like hours before I finally made it home.

I parked my car and slowly got out, locking it behind me. Julie was probably still soundlessly asleep and there was no way I was going to wake her. I made it to my apartment and went straight to my room. I was tired but couldn't sleep. A headache was slowly brewing in my skull but I ignored it. Just as I was about to take out my phone to text Harry, it vibrated.