Diary

February 16, 2026

Lately I've been tired. Maybe it's the lack of sleep or exercise or things to do.

Everyday is the same. Boring but happy for me.

My days repeat... year after year...

It's been over 6 or 7 years.

I try to remember but gradually I lost my sense of time a long time ago.

Was it 2018 or 2019???

If I don't subtract the years, I would never know how long I've been at this for.

Even my age has been forgotten.

Now I feel awkward sometimes when asked because I don't remember and can't answer immediately.

Is it weird? To forget age, birthday, holidays, people, names, and important memories?

But that's how it is for me.

I'm forgetting more and more even when I try my best to remember.

Well, back to what I mainly want to write about today.

I think I like cold and indifferent characters.

There's one I'm reading about lately that just doesn't bother or give a shit about the beautiful women around him.

He's harsh and blunt with them.

It's just... he's like that because the past him was like a dog licker.

He learned his lesson and now avoids them and looks down on them.

But if I forget about how he became like this, it's really funny and refreshing sometime to see him beat down those bitches.

I know it's because of the type of story it is. A protagonist that is looked down upon by everyone but always slaps back to prove them wrong.

Honestly... I just want to see a straight guy that focuses on leveling up while blind and ignores every women around him.

Maybe being friends is fine. Like real friends. A comrade and brother.

Not a horny bitch or a Tsundere or a noble lady that's granting honor or a bitch that suddenly falls in love.

I want to see an honest and sincere relationship.

Oh and no master and servant or slave or beast contract or savior shit.

Don't act submissive while seducing a guy that's not even interested. Don't sexually harass the guy.

Give the guy personal space.

And at least know the guy!!!

I swear if you've been with the guy for awhile and witness his boring daily routine and martial arts training and understand his simple and serious personality, you know not to bother him!

It's so annoying to watch and read!

Yeah you can ask him to take a break to go shopping or on an adventure or just go leveling in a dungeon or something...

But don't make plans to somehow show off more skin, get naked, get drunk, or induce jealousy!

What jealousy is there even?!

I feel embarrassed for you!!!

Especially when I can head his exact mood written in word right in front of me!

Cliche! Not interested! Just wants to avoid you!
And wasting training time!

I feel the same way too.

Cliches that happens multiple times but with different women.

Not interested in a bitch that's full of herself and clearly has no romantic experience or concept of mutuality and equality.

Avoid you because you all only cause trouble and are a burden.

I mean friendship isn't to expect things from others but I at least expect some trust and respect.

But if being with you causes problems all the time then just go away.

It sound harsh and most of the time it seems like it's not their fault for being too beautiful but...

There are times when they don't refuse, step up, and watch with a proud feeling of being fought over.

Or clingy to the guy to use as a shield and gun.

Seriously! The time wasted that could be used for getting stronger, level up, earn new skills, or complete system tasks for rewards is much more exciting and cool!

Why bother with ugly people, scum, illogical nonsense talk, and fight?

I feel tired for the protagonist sometimes.

One after another... especially when this guy is so much stronger than his peers!!!

If it wasn't for school, I would've like setting this guy free on a mission to unlock new maps, species, race, country, secret realm, dungeons, and items.

Now I'm tired and going to sleep very early.

I feel so down lately...

Anyways. It's 5:30pm.

Since I'm sleeping this early, I'll most likely wake up before dawn tomorrow.