Diary

February 22, 2025 (part 2)

I just went through the App Store a bit and tried searching a few things to see.

I'm so disappointed.

Maybe I never got the chance to play games much growing up so I'm not heavily invested.

But I do have an interest in games.

I watch let's plays and ads and sometimes I want to try it.

But the ads I see are scams.

And the let's plays I watch aren't mobile games plus I have to purchase the game to play.

It's hard finding a game to play....

Especially after looking at the reviews.

I can get competitive but only in the moment. Like an impulse. Most of the time I'm casual.

I don't like hardcore leveling or fighting.

It has to be cute and good looking or unique.

I don't mind ads, but too much is just too much.

I also don't want everything to need money to continue playing. At least have a free option or watch ads for it.

I don't want there to be a problem with the app not deleting once I delete it.

I don't want a game that eats battery rapidly and takes up huge unnecessary data storage.

I like management games but not the repeated selling stuff games.

Maybe I like infrastructure games but I don't like the technical stuff.

I just want a game that's similar to the light novel stories I read on wattpad.

Like raising a paper man.

Or reclaiming wasteland.

Or building a shelter or base.

But I hate strategy games.

I just want to relax and play with ease and with no penalty for failure.

I'll be stressed out if I have to be careful of residents dying or their mood plummets and betray or rebel or whatever.

Actually I can be very persistent.

And maybe a little OCD?

I once played Mystic Messenger and got pretty far with it.

Unfortunately something happened that made me stop which made me missed a few days and got frustrated.

Imagine going for weeks straight, everyday I logged in repeatedly to catch the time for chats and calls.

I set alarm for this shit and barely slept.

I kept sleeping then waking up then sleeping the waking up!

It could be 12am or 3 am or 5 or 6 am!

It could be at any time. I'd wake up once I hear that alarm. I went through walkthroughs to get the time right and not miss anything.

Then I missed a day... it all went to ruin.

My persistence... shattered and I cried miserably.

So I stopped completely and finally revived with good sleep.

Luckily I set the alarm for this a different tone I'd never usually use.

That way I won't remember such nightmare and jolt wake when I hear an alarm again.

But maybe someone can use it against me if they ever knew which tone I used. If I won't wake up, just play that tone and I'll jolt awake.

Well I don't know if it'll still work after so long. I played this game years ago.

Do it's been years since I've heard the tone.

But the tone I once used for going to school?

Heh. Don't even joke about it.

I literally no longer have any alarms set but sometimes I get this phantom ringing in my ear of the exact tone I used for school.

It haunts me now!!!

I understand why.

Again luckily I never put the default tone for alarms. Otherwise every time someone has a phone call... ugh

Imagine using the same tone for years and hearing it everyday to go to school.

Now I can't stand hearing that tone again.