Diary

May 31, 2025

This morning I was a bit upset.

I haven't gone to sleep yet and saw my mom woke up on time like every morning.

So I took a moment to ask out of curiosity.

What does she plan to cook today?

I didn't get a definite answer. But she asked what do I want to eat.

I said I don't know. So what does she plan to cook?

One way or another the topic got to saying I'm a very picky eater.

Wtf?

I know I'm spoiled and a very picky eater but I try not to make it difficult for you because you're the cook and I know it's tiring and difficult.

That's why I ask. I don't demand or force anything.

I know my limits.

Using the reason of love and affection feels a bit unreasonable.

Yes. I'm happy for the love and care.

But... I just feel so... disappointed. Sad maybe?

I rather be disappointed with not eating good food or a happy meal that meets my appetite than to be blamed that there's nothing to eat because I'm picky.

Yeah. As you say. Even restaurant and professional chef food brought from outside sometimes can't satisfy me.

I also know that one meal cost could instead buy a sack of rice lasting about over a month.

But I try my best to never ask for too much.

I only ever ask for food.

Food is almost like a hobby to me. It gives me joy.

I don't ask for clothes, jewelry, shoes, toys, or any materials that are not a necessity.

If you check all my past chat records, my reading list is all food.

I like to try new things. I like tasting different cuisines.

Sometimes western and sometimes eastern food.

They're interesting and it feels like making discoveries.

But... I'm upset that I'm being told I'm a picky eater.

Yes. I complain a lot about food I don't like.

Too salty.

Too savory.

Too bland.

Too sweet.

Not enough flavor.

Too soft.

Too raw.

Has bones.

Has fish.

I can list so many things I don't like about food when I don't like it.

But I also like commenting and reviewing good food when I encounter a surprise.

I don't know why my palate is so picky.

Everyone who knows about it will talk about it.

Even I agree.

But this morning I didn't even say to cook anything!!!

I was asking for the menu of the day!

If I don't like it. I won't eat it.

If I like it. I will eat it.

That's the two extreme part of me when it comes to food.

All I wanted to know was simple.

When I get the answer, I could immediately decide to give my mom a heads up.

I don't like it? Okay. Get the usual ready to eat store brought food, heat it up and done.

Simple. Fast. No issues.

I've been eating the exact same thing almost every day after I discovered it. It has all the flavors I like and it's easy to eat.

It's Costco's Chicken Tortilla Soup.

It use to have a green packaging but then they switch to a white one at the Costco I go to.

Now there's two different types. The new type I hate with beans that suddenly used the old green packaging which made me almost stop buying it the first time it appeared in Costco.

The old type which suddenly change to a white packaging which I love to eat. This one is the one I discovered first and was happy it didn't get discontinued by the new type.

I eat this every day when there's nothing I like to eat.

I can eat it with rice, bread, and tortilla chips.

Very happy and easy to eat.

It has to be said. I'm a picky eater. But when it's something I really like, I can eat it repeatedly for a long time until I get tired of it.

I've been eating the for months since I first tried it and still continue to like it now and haven't been tired of it.

So to say I'm picky. Yes. I am.

But I also feel like I'm easy as long as there's something I like.

It's just my likes is... uh.. only this and that... not much.

Sometimes I want a change in taste too, you know?

But damn! I feel so hurt this morning.

I know I'm being sensitive and she didn't say it to blame me. But still...

Oh! And recently I've been loving Costco's Seaweed Tempura Sriracha flavored.

Every time my mom has to buy as many bags as possible because they sometimes run out of stock.

I don't like seaweed. But these are an exception.