Have you ever gotten an uneasy feeling that just doesn't make sense?
I'm not a very intuitive person so I don't believe in my own gut feeling.
Actually it's because the feeling isn't that strong.
I've only ever believed it once when it felt very strong. The feeling came from my sister's ex boyfriend. It later turned out I was right and the guy was no good.
But at normal times like right now. There's nothing happening around me but I suddenly feel uneasy.
I don't believe I'm going to have a bad day or anything.
It just feel similar to when I'm so bored I felt like puking. But this is only when it gets extreme. And it's more like dry heaving.
Well I'm not that bored out of my mind yet. But lately I've been feeling a bit bored. I can't say it's unexpected. I do the same thing everyday and there's nothing new.
The updates I'm waiting for a lot of stories and manga aren't fast enough or has long update schedules.
It's also been a very long time since I've gotten on YouTube to watch anything too. How long has it been? 3 to 5 months maybe?
I've been reading everyday and using my brain a lot to create imaginative worlds that I think I might be losing inspiration.
No matter how good or new words describe their world setting, action, and characters. The minor details still needs to be thought by me.
Afterall it's a little awkward when I look at a frozen image like a photo or a box and then the story goes on to another setting.
It's like giving me a torn old incomplete map.
I can't help but piece it together and make it look whole and proper.
But when I put it together, I found a piece missing.
And it pissed me off...
That's the feeling I get sometimes. If a story is good enough and is interesting, I'll create its world in great detail in my head.
If not then the image in my head is really rough and blurry and eventually I'll forget it after some time has passed.
Well... I feel like my current state, mentally and physically, is really exhausted.
I want to do nothing but at the same time I want something to do.
No labor though.
I've been feeling like I'm starting to eat a lot more. I keep snacking on anything I find when I'm bored even when I just finished eating a meal.
The feeling is like wanting to keep eating but not hungry at all.
But sometimes I also feel like I get full too fast and can't finish my meals but the not long later I feel hungry and want to eat again.
I also don't know if it's my illusion but recently it also feels like there's nothing to eat even though I see some food to eat.
Maybe I'm tired and want to change my taste.
Or I'm starting to go to a whole new level of being hungry but too lazy to eat, chew, and swallow.
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RandomI want to write out my thoughts as honestly as possible and try not to lie like I always do. Maybe by being anonymous will make me stop being a liar. I think it's a bit late to say this after publishing for about a month but I should put a warning. ...
