It's very uncomfortable sometimes when I have a story idea I want to create but don't know how to start it and then end it.
Lately, I don't think my stories are too terrible.
In fact, I like reading them over sometimes as a refresher.
It helps to remember what I've written and see if I can continue with new ideas.
My ideas keep coming but my literacy is very poor.
I'm just happy my current self has gotten better at describing things than before.
But writing an original story entirely is hard.
If it was a fanfic, I can at least follow along the original and use it as reference.
But my own personal original doesn't have a guide except for some plot and scenario I already thought of and took note.
My difficulty is progression and pacing.
Sometimes I spend too much for one scene.
Other times, it's too little.
I'm not well educated in my literature but the way I write is similar to wanting to write a script.
I'm not actually writing a movie script but my stories form like an actual anime in my head.
So when I try to write it as a story, it comes out like how my current stories are.
There's so much I want to describe in detail to help the imagination, but they're too unnecessary and makes it sound or look more like an essay.
And characters.... I seem to unconsciously forget or don't bother to describe their specific appearance.
I can write about their mature or rough or young appearance.
But I don't write about starry eyes or crystal blue or ruby gem like eyes.
I also don't write about sunny golden hair or blinding white or fiery red hair.
I don't describe style or shape either.
Do you get it?
My characters have no individuality.
There's no personal characteristic that makes them who they are.
Which means they are not rememberable.
They're dull.
But in my head, they're all so beautiful, handsome, and good looking.
Their expressions are unique to them when the sneer or tiredly sigh or helplessly accepting or reluctant.
But... I don't know how to write it.
I feel so unsatisfied that I want to give up every time.
But writing is like a passion for me.
I don't know if it's something I want to do as a job or anything but I do know I currently am eager to be able to write my creations to a satisfactory level.
Too bad.
My writing is immature.
My literacy level is poor.
My vocabulary is not diverse.
I feel like if I can't improve these problems, my story will just always be dull and boring.
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Diary
AléatoireI want to write out my thoughts as honestly as possible and try not to lie like I always do. Maybe by being anonymous will make me stop being a liar. I think it's a bit late to say this after publishing for about a month but I should put a warning. ...
