Diary

February 15, 2025

Few minutes before midnight and it's raining with a tornado watch warning on the weather app....

And the lights in my room just flickered.

WOW.

How great would it be if the generator was finished, huh?

Then we could test it out if there's a black out.

Although I don't think the wind and rain is strong enough right now to cause one.

My lights did flicker and my wifi did have a bad signal for a moment.

I feel unlucky but fortunate.

My feelings are very mixed and contradictory.

I hate the guy that just won't finish the work and seems like wasting time, but he's the guy my sister introduced and hired.

The guy is already paid fully so he just needs to finish the job.

I told my sister and she asked if I just want to call a stop to it but he's the only person they know that can install the generator.

I'm speechless. The way she said it was like I'm being unreasonable and should just let the guy do his work.

I'm fine with it as long as he DOES do his work!!!

That's my whole complaint and coming unscheduled!!!

I asked my sister if my house is a public toilet that could just be entered at anytime and she didn't reply.

I told her it's getting cold and I'm afraid to turn on the house heater. But I'm currently fine for now because I have a heater in my room.

She asked what kind of heater I have and told me the one my mom has heats up good.

Hello?

Can you start talking with some sense???

I HAVE a heater.

But that's not the problem.

The problem is my house heater!!!

I'm afraid the guy without a license did something wrong which cause that burning smell that day!!!

I'm afraid something will explode or cause a fire while home alone!!!

You expect a small heater that you plug in an outlet can heat up the whole house on a very cold day?!

I want to see you try it at your house and see if your baby doesn't freeze to death!!!

You need to make sense for me to think you're reasonable and I'm just complaint like a pampered spoiled bitch!

I might be mentally unstable but I'm not a dumb bitch that doesn't know about safety precautions and not dragging innocent people to death with me.

Also burning to death or exploding is not my ideal!!!

Do you know how painful it is to slowly suffocate and choke while your skin is peeling off and being cooked right in front of your eyes?!?!

Give some respect to firefighters that dare to go rescue and run into a burning building while knowing the consequences!!!

You think they don't know or not scared?

Wrong! They know more and even better than the average person. They are taught and trained knowing different kinds of fire and causes! They know the consequences and limit to what a human body can handle.

While knowing, they chose to repeatedly run into that fire to save lives! That is their proud duty and honor which deserves respect.

Just like the police and soldiers.

No matter how incompetent and ugly the media puts out about those bad apples, you cannot deny the people working with their lived as risk for the peace and order of civilians.

I'm going on about this but...

Do you understand?!?!

I'm paranoid. Yes. Very.

But this time my paranoia and worries are justified and reasonable!!!