Yesterday I found MyReadingManga is no longer the same.
Almost like on WP. There was a purge and a lot got removed. Even the search filter is no longer like before. And when you search a tag, the results are so few. And this is with all languages.
Search for English and there'll be even fewer!
Ahhhh....
Why is it so hard to keep enjoyment?
I just want to read something hot and sexy and get aroused! But it's so hard to find the right preference!
My taste is perverted and I feel nothing from watching real porn!
What I read are not real men, but at least they look aesthetically pleasing!
The body is hot and muscular! The dick is big! The face is handsome and good looking!
Why watch porn when it feels awkward and weird?! No romance or chemistry! No build up!
Bad acting and scenarios!
Is it just my preference are low quality?!
Not many people in the industry like doing this type?!
Plus the voice! Moans! And gasps!
I get it. It's a job. Sex is just sex to you. It happens so much that it's probably rare to find it enjoyable. Most even use drugs to get aroused or in the mood before filming, I'm guessing.
But that's what makes me so...ugh!!!
Honestly voice is also important.
Give me a good sexy audio and I'll close my eyes and imagine it myself. Guarantee to give you a made up handsome look. It's just you'll be a 2d character. Not a real guy in my mind.
Just don't ever let me know your real appearance if you're not good looking. That way I won't suddenly wilt and lose my mood when I hear your voice again.
Sounds harsh but that's the nature of what this topic is.
It's not lovers or sex friends. Not even a one night stand. This is literally through a screen. So appearances and voice is really important for porn.
As a viewer, I can't feel your touches and caresses but I can see your sex partners reaction.
Its weird. When I watch it, I feel like they can lay there like dead wood. The reaction I see is exaggerated and has no enjoyment.
Which make me not get in the mood watching.
It's really hard to describe how I feel. I don't expect a virgin or love. But it's very obvious how so used to sex you are.
And the licking... I really can't stand the long scenes of just licking. It also feels weird.
Sex should be enjoyable. Is literally one of the seven sins, lust.
You often see and read so much about desires and demons dancing in the night.
So you can imagine what it means when you hear "addicted to sex".
But to watch porn that shows barely anything that represents that besides intercourse is really...
You know what's even more terrible?
It's the fact that movie scenes with sex that don't even have real intercourse is sometimes hotter and sexier than porn!
Literally a scene of two people drunk, going to one house, slam on the doors and walls kissing and hugging while ripping each other's clothes off, toss everything randomly into the air, fall onto the bed, cover themselves in sheets and blankets, then shake the bed like there's an earthquake!
No real sex.
Sometime not even a real kiss!
It's just all camera angles and directing. The voices makes it better for the imagination.
A short scene like that and then it cuts to the sound of showering.
Done.
Do you get it?
How... is THAT.... Better than porn?!
Is it because of the actors? Their good looks? Or is it their bodies?
But hey... guess what....
There's not even a full view!!!
Sometimes it may even be stunt doubles!!!
Damn it. Wattpad and now even myreadingmanga....
I just want to read something good sometimes!
QAQ
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De TodoI want to write out my thoughts as honestly as possible and try not to lie like I always do. Maybe by being anonymous will make me stop being a liar. I think it's a bit late to say this after publishing for about a month but I should put a warning. ...
