My eyes opened slowly and they adjusted to lighting in Allison’s room. I was sore and still angry and depressed at the same time. I just couldn’t escape the feelings; they would probably be with me for the rest of my life. I guess I would just have to get used to covering them up. I looked around and that’s when I noticed that Allison wasn’t there with me. Where the hell was she?
I got on my hands and knees and punched the ground. I was convinced that I had lost her. Allison had probably left for good, she was probably just waiting for me to leave and get out of her life forever. I couldn’t do that; I couldn’t live my life without her. Allison was and always will be the only thing keeping me somewhat sane. There was no way I could handle losing her again. After everything we had been through, there was no way.
“Dammit…” I whispered as I stood up.
I started pacing around the room and growling, trying not to shift right there. Who knows what I would do if I let the monster take control of me again, I wouldn’t let him take over again. I growled and then stopped pacing as Allison’s locket caught my eye.
Slowly, I walked to her dresser looking at that locket. Flashes of us in the photo booth ran through my mind. Then I started to think about the first day we met and all of the amazing, happy experiences that we had shared since then. The damned locket was mocking me. I was reminded of all the times that we weren’t broken, the times when I was good to Allison and I protected her. That guy inside the locket that was with Allison was not the same boy standing in her room right then. The protecting, caring, loving, boyfriend was gone and now it was just Scott McCall the monster.
I grabbed the locket out of anger and looked at it one last time before crushing it in my hand. The anger and pain of the memories was too much. I couldn’t handle it anymore so I just destroyed the locket. I wasn’t thinking, just acting out of rage and letting the monster slip through me slightly. When I realized I was letting the monster out, I realized what I had just done.
Tears started to fall down my cheeks and I looked at the now demolished locket. Allison would be devastated, the locket meant so much to her and now I had just ruined it. Just like I ruin everything else in Allison’s life. Honestly, I didn’t think there was anything else I could ruin for her. What hadn’t I ruined, truly? I had taken away her mother, her innocence, her sanity, her happiness, her everything. She acted like it wasn’t my fault but I know that it was.
Allison’s voice took me out of my thoughts and I realized that she was talking to someone in the kitchen. I didn’t think they were with her though; they were talking on the phone. I wiped my tears and started walking to the kitchen ever so slowly. Although I didn’t want to, I had to show Allison what I had done. She needed to know because if I didn’t tell her, she would feel even worse about it all.
The locket was still in my hand which was gripped tightly around it. I honestly didn’t know if I would be able to open my hand for Allison to see what I had done. What would she say? Would she just forgive me like before or would she yell at me like she should? The pain was killing me and I stopped behind her in the kitchen.
“Allison…” I took a deep breath, hesitant to say anything else, “Allison I’m sorry.”
