Allison took a breath as I struggled to reply. It wasn’t as easy as it might’ve seemed. How would I tell her? Okay. I would just say everything on my mind and hope for the best. so I did. “I can’t live without you. As incredibly stupid as it sounds I can’t. All this time you thought you were the needy one. You’re so wrong. I need you. So much.” My voice almost sounded desperate but it was mainly just sweet. I wanted to keep my voice in that tone to show her that I was serious. I needed her!
Allison looked into my eyes and I got lost in hers. Those eyes… so simple yet they could break me so easily. Just one simple glance and I was hers. I would tell her anything, do anything for her. They’re just so sweet and innocent. I will always get lost in her eyes.
“How can you forgive me?” She looked down after speaking which made me sad. I loved looking at her and I hated when she would look away from me like she was trying to hide. It also upset me that she didn’t understand. She didn’t realize that I was never really mad at her. Well, I was but I got over that very quickly. As soon as I realized what losing Allison meant, I regretted everything. And I forgave her because I should’ve been mad at myself not Allison. It was my fault.
I sighed and put my finger underneath her chin, lifting it gently and slowly so that she was looking at me. That was much better. “Oh, Allison. I forgave you so long ago. I couldn’t stay mad at you. Trust me I wanted to. Things would be easier. I couldn’t even stay mad at Stiles.” All of this was true and I hoped she understood that. I loved her. More than she would ever understand and I needed to fix this. Fix us.
Suddenly, Allison was on her feet and running away from me. I was pouring my heart out, telling her everything on my mind and she just left? What. The. Hell? I didn’t understand what I did. Was it something I said? Was she upset or angry? Oh god, Did I hurt her? I didn’t know, but I did know that I needed to follow her and stop her.
I made a run for it, out of the nurses office and towards the love of my life. I was obviously much faster than Allison, so I knew that I could catch up. “Allison! What are you doing? Allison!” I yelled as I chased her through the school hallways. The people around me were irrelevant. I needed to get to her! She started to run faster and I groaned to myself. Why must she be so difficult?
Allison darted for the doors and made her way outside. The rain was pouring down and I watched as she became soaked instantly after getting outside. She froze and I knew this was my opportunity to get to her. “Allison! Allison!” I yelled and ran up to her.
The moment I stepped outside into the rain, my clothes and body became drenched in water. My hair was sopping wet and the front started to curl like it always did when it became wet. It was almost like a superman curl. Great, I actually had a nice shirt on too. A new, white shirt, soaking wet and completely ruined. Obviously I would dry it off but it was still kind of upsetting. Plus, it was see through now which made me slightly uncomfortable because Allison always made me nervous. Especially nervous about my body. I know, i know, ‘what a girl.’
“What?” She spit out at me. She seemed upset now. Oh no, what did I do. I didn’t understand. I was just trying to fix her. I just wanted to make her happy but obviously that backfired on me. It wouldn’t be the first time that had happened though. Especially regarding Allison.
“What’s wrong?” I had to know, “I thought you’d be happy beca-”
“Yeah well Scott not everything works like it does in movies!” Obviously I knew that was true. That didn’t mean that good things couldn’t happen though. Hey, sometimes life can be just like the movies. It just depends on the situation. “You can’t just say you love me and then happy ever after.” I knew this would happen. Allison didn’t want me anymore. I understood even though it hurt. “No. No. No…. Scott I’ll just hurt you again. I can’t.” That’s what this was about? You’ve got to be kidding me. ‘OBVIOUSLY I WANT TO BE WITH YOU CAN YOU JUST ACCEPT THAT?’ No, Allison was way too stubborn for that. And she doubted herself way too much. “Not agai-” Thats when she started to sob. Great I just made her feel even worse. God, I really hated myself. I was such an idiot. I should’ve never forced this upon her or tried to at least. I shouldn’t have said anything!
Actually, yes. i should’ve. This was necessary and I wasn’t done yet. She needed to know everything, understand everything. She was insane to think that she hurt me by being with me. “No! I won’t let you do this! You are never, ever a burden to me. Ever. We’ve only been apart for one day. Just one day. That one day hurt more than anything that has ever happened. I would rather have my dad throw a beer bottle at my back a million times before living without you.” That was it. The whole truth. And it was all I needed to say.
Allison began to talk again and I shook my head. Was this a joke? She’s got to be kidding me. ‘Oh shut up.’ Was my last thought before my hands moved to her cheeks, pulling her lips to mine. I’d had enough. Enough fighting, and holding back, enough of being without her. I needed Allison and I needed to kiss her so that is exactly what I did. Her soft lips, finally against mine and the feeling was more than sensational. It felt right. She pulled my waist closer to hers and we both found ourselves getting lost in each other's lips. And I knew then that I was right and Allison was wrong. Life can be like the movies. It was, right then. The rain poured down onto my cheeks and lips as I kissed Allison. We were in our own movie and i wanted to stay that way forever. Everything, for once, was perfect. And not once did it cross my mind that just yesterday she was kissing my best friend. That these lips had touched his not long ago, and more than that. I didn’t realize that what was mine once again, was once his.
