Quickly, I pulled out my phone and began to text my best friend - Something is going on with Allison call her and make sure she's okay? She isn't telling me what's wrong. - I sent the text and set my phone next to me. Maybe Allison could tell stiles. It would make me happy to know that she could at least tell someone what was going on and get it off of her chest. I just wanted her to be happy.
Whatever was going on was obviously a big deal I just wished that I could know so I could make her feel better about it. I hated it being able to fix her. It didn't matter how much it hurt me, if I could fix Allison everything was okay. Seeing that smile that I love so much could cheer me up no matter how angry or sad I was. A slight smile appeared on my face as I started to think about her. Everything about Allison was perfect, and I don't just mean physically. Her personality, like the way she cares about everyone around her and how loving and trustworthy she is. Not to mention those gorgeous eyes and dimpl-
My train of thought was interrupted when my phone went off next to me. It read -sure thing- which was strange to me because stiles would usually send me paragraphs. If I ever asked him anything he would somehow find a way to talk about exactly how fast a cheetah can run or how animals have adapted over the years. I'm not kidding, I have no idea how it even happens. So when he sent me only a few words I was actually kind of scared. It was refreshing to know he wasn't dead though.
I took a deep breath before writing my reply to stiles. He sounded busy or something but I didn't care, I needed to get this off of my chest. -Stiles... Do you think I'm good for Allison? I'm serious. I know what you said the other day but things have changed. I mean, I yelled out the one thing that she wanted no one to ever know to everyone! I think she might be scared of me now, that ill hurt her like I hurt Romeo. Are you scared of me? I don't know what to think anymore man. Ever since that night nothing has been the same. I'm trying to help her but I just don't think I'm good at this. Am I not doing enough? What else can I do for her to show her how much I love her? Should I tell her that I think about spending the rest of my life with her every day? That I think about sitting with her hand In hand while our grandchildren run around the house... I know how stupid I sound and if you make a sarcastic comment I swear ill punch you in the face ;) I guess what I'm trying to say is I love her man... More than you'll ever know and I don't want to lose her. Whatever she's hiding is obviously something big... What if she wants to break up with me or something? At least I know ill always have you right? You don't have to reply i just needed to get that out. I love you bro. -
By the end of the text my cheeks were sopping wet from my tears. I hit send and set my phone down. My sobs grew louder as I thought about Allison leaving me. I couldn't live without her she is my everyth-
I look over to see Chris standing in my doorway. My eyes went wide and I looked at him confused and scared.
"M-Mr. Argent w-what are you doing here?"
"Get up Scott. There's something we need to talk about."
I was scared of him and there was no denying that. So, I slowly started to stand up, my legs shaking but I was able to sit on my bed. I didn't want to hear what he had to say. I trusted Allison not him and if she didn't want me to know then I wouldn't let him tell me.
"Mr. Argent. Allison doesn't want you to tell me-"
He interrupted me with the worst sentence I could ever hear. "She kissed Stiles. That's what she's hiding from you Scotty boy."
No. No. No. No. He was lying he had to be.stiles was my best friend he would never- 5. That was the amount of times their tongues touched that night with their bodies tangled together. I knew it. The way they kissed, there was a spark there but they wouldn't admit it. How could I be so blind? I trusted them and they betrayed me. The strange thing was that I wasn't mad. I felt nothing... Nothing but pain inside my heart. All of the things I had been thinking about stiles and Allison were wrong. I had just poured my heart out to stiles about how much I loved Allison yet he was the one who had kissed her that day. Not me.
How was it that my best friend was able to kiss her before I even had the chance? I was dealing with the aftermath of taking care of her and this is what I get?! Who was more to blame? My best friend who calls himself my brother. Or the love of my life who had specifically told me not to worry about this. I understood that I was unstable and an emotional wreck but why wasn't my love enough? I had never once even thought about leaving her or kissing someone else. Allison was the only thing in my life that made sense anymore. Just because I didn't go through The same experience does not mean that I wasn't there for her. Every single day I would wake up and the first thing on my mind would be Allison. Every single thing I did was for her. All I would ever do was try to keep her happy and safe even though I wasn't. Was I not good enough for her now because I was such a wreck? Had she moved on? Maybe Allison was bored. Maybe I was too plain for her and she wanted something new. Or maybe she was right, there's no such thing as fate. All those daydreams of us together were all thrown in the trash.
"How d-do you know?"
We're the only words I could manage to spit out as my sobs grew.
"When I got home today I went to Allison's room to talk with her about her skipping sixth period and I found both of them naked on the bed. It was quite disturbing for me to see but hey she's not a little girl anymore, which is your fault I might add, and at least Stilinski won't hurt her like you will."
Naked? Would they do that to me?i guess he was right. Stiles could never hurt her. I hurt Allison every single day. I didn't deserve and stiles did... But it hurt. Like a knife being dug into my side. No, I couldn't take this anymore. Stiles naked with the love of my life? The only girl I've ever loved? Everything we had was just shattered! A loud scream came out of my mouth as I threw an old trophy at the wall. I watched as it shattered before me just like me relationship.
My legs went numb and I sunk to the floor bawling with my face in between my knees. Did I deserve this? Was this my punishment for killing those men? I guess i did deserve it. I couldn't take it though. The worst part was that I needed Allison then more than ever. I needed her arms wrapped around me so I could take in her sweet scent and run my hands through her hair. I needed her soft lips pressed against my cheek as I clung to her for warmth. I needed that reassurance that I would be okay. But this time... For the first time... I knew that I wouldn't get that back.
"If you come with me now we can go to his house. We'll probably catch her walking out his house."
At this point I would've done anything he said. I just needed to know that it was true. And I needed to see her. So, I nodded wiping my tears and following him to his car. I stayed silent the whole ride there even though Chris kept talking about what was going on and how I didn't deserve Allison. Finally we stopped at Stiles' house and sure enough, she was there. Allison was walking to her car and before I could think, I was outside standing behind her.
"So it's true. Y-You've been with Stiles."
