The Jock and the Nerd (A Jc Caylen and Kian Lawley Story)

Chapter 34: The Past Is In The Past

I Choose You by Sara Berailles

I know this chapter is kind of short...😁

But I'm really busy lately with school, other activities, and even more writing for other books.

But this chapter is really important and a lot happens in it so I wanted to keep it short, I hope you understand. 💕

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Jc:

Thankfully, my mom never found out about my fight. Kian, Connor, and Ricky did a really good job at hiding it from her, and I was grateful for that.

When my mom asked why I had a black eye, I started to panic. She got up real close and studied my face.

"He kind of ran into a door. You know Jc, he's very clumsy." Kian covers for me, laughing nervously. I laugh along, and my mom turns away, leaving it for now. I let out a relieved sigh, giving Kian a grateful look. He smiled back softly.

"You're so cute when you're nervous." Kian smiles shyly, wrapping his long arms around my torso and craning his neck down to look at me.

I scrunch my nose at his comment, and Kian laughs, placing a soft kiss on my forehead.

"Just don't ever scare me like that again." Kian gives me a pointed look, and I can tell he was trying to make a joke out of the situation. But I knew better.

I could see through his careless facade, that he was really torn inside. I would be too if the roles were switched. He's doing this for my sake, though. He doesn't want to make it a big deal.

"I know it's bugging you, babe." I say, giving him a sympathetic look. His fake joking demeanor slipped into a troubled one. He sighed, running a hand through his hair.

"I just don't know what I'd do if you got hurt." He looks at me helplessly, giving me those big, brown puppy dog eyes that I can never resist.

"Oh, baby, I'm sorry. I was trying to protect you." I plant kisses on his shoulders and chest. His tight muscles contracted as he melted against my touch.

"Next time, if you're trying to protect me, let me have a say in it." Kian gives me a small, understanding smile, and I nod quickly.

"I love you so much, Kian." I tell him, holding him closely to me. His arms tighten around me as we hold each other. I can hear his heart beating fast, and I smile, knowing the effect I have on him.

"I love you, too." He tells me softly, kissing the top of my head as I let out a sigh.

"Can I ask you something?" Kian asks me after a few moments of silence. I nod gently against his chest as he starts to rub my back.

"I know there's something more to this than just protecting me. You're not telling me something." I tense under his arms, my heart picking up in anxiety.

"Just tell me, Jc. Be honest with me." Kian holds onto me tighter, not willing to let me go. I relax under his touch, knowing he won't let me go, but my mind is still racing.
"Okay, I'll tell you." I gulp, trying to calm my nerves. Kian continued to rub my shoulders comfortingly.

"You know how when I was younger, I was bullied?" I tell Kian, and he nods, pushing me to continue.

"Well, the reason for that was because I was—well, am—gay. I had told my best friend that I liked guys, and he turned my back on me, telling everyone." I gulped, taking deep breaths. Kian looked at me sympathetically.

"I was bullied for years until I got to high school, and I could start over."

"I'm so sorry, baby. I had no idea...Why didn't you tell me?" Kian looks at me with concern. I shrugged, trying to hide my embarrassment.

"I didn't want you to think I was having second thoughts about you. Just because I was bullied because of it, doesn't mean I would ever leave you." I assured Kian, looking up at him with troubled eyes.

Kian gently places his lips on mine, sighing into me. "I'll never leave you, either."

I don't think we could leave each other if we wanted to.

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Who would you choose: Kian or Jc?

Don't ask me to pick, I can't! They're my babies and I love them both for different reasons. They are different in this book than in real life, so I'm a way, they're my own characters. Just withe the same names and faces. 😂

But at the same time, they are Jc and Kian...does that make sense? 😅

Oh well, it did to me! 😋

Hope you enjoyed this chapter! Comment and like if you did!

I love each and every one of you! 🌹

PS. who's watching the bachelor right now?

Amanda was my favorite. 😭

Now I want Lauren to win. 🙂

Xoxo, Alli