It Needs to Happen

Chapter 53

Colleen POV

I hear my Mom talking as I open my eyes. She is sitting beside Josh beside me. I realize I have tubes down my throat and grab him to get his attention. "Baby?" he says jumping up. I am terrified as I stare at him as my Mom sits beside me, both of them crying. I look down and see my stomach is gone and start to panic as machines start beeping. "Baby calm down. Everything is fine" he says kissing my hand. I see nurses run in. "Ahh sleeping beauty awakes" an older nurse says coming to my bedside. "Colleen we are here to help you. Just relax ok? Noah is fine" the nurse continues. I see her checking the machine beside me. "Josh we are going to keep the ventilator in to help her until she is a bit stronger" the nurse says smiling. "Welcome back" they say in unison. "You are one lucky woman Colleen your husband here hasn't left your side for 5 days" she says smiling at him. I nod and look at Josh. He has bags under his eyes as he looks exhausted. I reach for him and he sits beside me as my Mom sits on the other side. "Baby you had a heart attack on the way to the hospital in the ambulance. Do you remember that?" he asks me. I nod. "Well they did a c section to get Noah out of you because the antibodies were attacking your heart, weakening it" he says. "You have been unconscious for 5 days baby. I missed you" he says kissing my fingers. "We missed you" he adds looking at my Mom. I grab my stomach and look at him. "Noah is in NICU sweetheart. He is doing good. Just tiny. Only 3 pounds" he says smiling. I cry holding him tighter. "No more babies for you. This is killing my nerves" he says laughing. I smile. "Baby I love you. I will leave you alone with Josh and come back later with your Dad ok?" my mom asks. I nod as she kisses my cheek. I see her and Josh squeeze each others hands as she departs. He looks at me so tired but excited to have me back. I start making the motion of writing something and he picks up on it right away. He goes through my knapsack and passes me a pad of paper and a pen. "SLEEP BABE. YOU LOOK TIRED" I write letting him read it. "No Maam. I am staying here" he says. I WANT TO SEE NOAH I write. He nods and grabs his phone and shows me pics. He is terribly tiny and I start to cry. "Babe dont let the wires and tubes fool you. They are just helping him. He isn't struggling. He is doing great" he says. I nod closing my eyes.