It Needs to Happen

Chapter 56

Josh POV

I am pacing the halls. The rest of the family knows to leave me alone. I stare down at the floor and pray to god for my girl, my life. I walk down to the nursery and see Noah's bassinet is empty. I start to panic as I quickly buzz at the doorway to allow the nurses to let me in. "Mr Evans! We have got some good news" the nurse says. "I saw Noah's bassinet empty. He is ok?" I ask searching for him. "Yes we are bathing him. You want to hold him?" She asks. "I can hold him?" I ask almost crying. She nods. "Just wait here" she says. I sit down and wait for her. I see her come back with him in her arms as she walks towards me smiling. "Just for a few minutes ok?" She says as I cry and nod while she lays him in my arms. He is so tiny. "Noah. My boy I love you" I whisper holding him tight. "I will bring Mommy to see you in a few days. We love you so much" I add. I sit there and stare at him and his tiny body. He is super fair skin like me. His face is so cute. I rock him until I feel a hand on my shoulder. It's Rachel. "Oh my god Josh he is so small" she says. I nod smiling. The nurse comes up to us to take him back to his bassinet as I stand up. I feel so full of love. "Josh, she is out of surgery. I came to find you" Rachel says snapping me out of my trance. "She is ok?" I ask as we walk quickly. "Not sure but you can see her now" she says.
I walk into the recovery room and see her laying there. Her doctor walks over to me as I approach. "Josh she did great. No problems in surgery" he says. I hug him tight as I tear up. He smiles and pats my back and ushers me towards her. I pick up her hand and she opens her eyes. "Heeyyyy sleepy" I say smiling as she focuses. She smiles squeezing my hand. I love her smile. "I am back with you" she says. I nod kissing her hand. "I missed you baby" I say sobbing. "Sssshhhhh baby" she says sweetly rubbing my cheek as she looks at me. "Feel ok?" I ask calming myself. "Great" she says. "Baby?" I say as she opens her eyes to look at me. "I held Noah babe. In a few days we can go see him and you can hold our son" I say smiling. She starts to cry. "He is ok?" She asks. "He is getting there babe. He is totally me. Pale as snow" I say laughing. She smiles and squeezes my hand. "Love you" she says staring in my eyes. "I love you more" I say leaning down to kiss her lips.