Scratching the Surface (Poems)

Bad Enough

So 

You say I'm not bad enough. 

That I don't need help. 

That my case is mild. 

That it's not important. 

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Maybe you don't know what it's like. 

To constantly binge eat, 

And judge myself

And beat myself up 

All the time. 

Maybe you don't know. 

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Because you say 

That since I don't cut 

Or starve 

Or throw up 

Or attempt suicide 

Or get hospitalized 

I must be fine. 

I don't need help. 

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Very well. 

Have it your way. 

I need your help. 

So I will cut 

And starve 

And throw up 

And attempt suicide 

And get hospitalized.  

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And maybe then you'll see 

That I'm not alright 

After all.