Scratching the Surface (Poems)

Monstrous

I can't help myself

This power I get from your tears

Knowing I am stronger then you

Better then you

Colder then you

I can't stop myself

I hurt when you say you're afraid of me

I love you

I love this feeling

The control I have over you

Is addicting

I fall asleep

Full of self hatred

Slash my wrists with a broken blade

Promise myself I'll do better

I'll be better

Please don't leave me

Leave me

I'll change I will I'm sorry

Hollow phrases and tenderness

Pulling you back to my side

Then anger rises inside me

We fight

You fall

Triumph fills my soul

And I smile

And you cry

And I break inside

I break you down to build myself up

Warring with myself

I must never lose

Never

Not even to you

Not even when it hurts you

I

Can't

Lose

I break you down to build myself up

I break you down to build myself

I break you down to build

I break you down to

I break you down

I break you

I break

I

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I'm a monster