Scratching the Surface (Poems)

Two-Sided Story

I hate the way my hair looks

I love the way her hair looks

Ugly brown clumps and snarls 

messy chocolate brown

I hate the pimples on my face

They block out everything 

her face is so smooth

barely a freckle

My rolls of fat stick out 

Fleshy, hideous 

she's perfect 

beautiful 

I wish I looked like the other girls 

i wish the other girls looked like her

Everyday, I only get worse 

everyday she only gets prettier

Why am I even here? 

I want to die 

I will never be good enough

im so glad shes here

she lights up my world 

 but i will never be good enough

Everyone hates me 

everyone hates me

But I don't care 

Not much 

but i dont care

as long as she knows im here

I just wish 

Someone would notice me 

i wish she 

would notice me

I feel lost 

Numb 

Broken 

Something's wrong with me

she always looks so sad tho

is she okay?

Nobody notices my pain 

I should just die

maybe i should talk to her

let her know im here

but no 

i dont want to make

a fool of myself 

and anyway

shes probably fine