You guys think I should get a new cover? 'Cause I kinda want one, but I'm not sure.
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Shadows swiming before my eyes
The lights in here
Are much to bright
I just wanna turn off my mind
I just wanna close my eyes
No
Pacing back and forth
Shivering
Mumbling
Hell, have I lost my mind already?
I thought I had more time
No
I
Can't
Close my eyes
Cutting and bleeding
To remember I'm still
Alive
I
Write on the walls
Trying not to scream
It's alright
I'll be fine
No
Gotta stay strong
Gotta stay focused
Gotta keep lying to them
To myself
If they know
They'd be worried
At least I'm the only one
Who can't sleep at night.
Biting my knuckles
I look like a wreck
I have to stay awake
Till the sun comes up
Music
Numbing my mind
Liquid floors
Blackouts
Maybe if I just relax...
No
I know
I know what your thinking
I can see it
Feel it
(Can't feel anything)
Isn't this hell enough
Huh?
Why do you do this to yourself?
(Why do I do this to myself?)
You don't see it
You don't understand
I hate these nights
Sleepless
Fighting exhaustion
Clawing my skin out
To stay awake
I dread the darkness
Another fight
Another inch away from sanity
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But I'm so afraid
To close my eyes
And watch my nightmares
Rise to life
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Scratching the Surface (Poems)
PoetryUPDATE: I wrote these when I was 13 and depressed all the time. I'm 18 now, and, fortunately, life's been going well! Unfortunately, these poems are fairly cringe, so read at your own risk. Just some poems that I write when I'm in the poetic mood...
