Uncontrollable

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"Shut up. 

Do what you're told"

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"Paint your face.

Work yourself to the bone." 

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"Stay in line. 

Be like the others." 

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"Smile for the camera. 

Just do the same old thing." 

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"You don't want to be different, 

Do you?"  

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But what if I wanted to scream 

In the middle of the street 

In the middle of the night 

And for once in my life 

Not care about the outcome? 

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What if I wanted to run 

Run away for a while 

Escape to a place 

Where nobody can find me 

Where nobody can stop me? 

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What if I wanted to laugh? 

Laugh like you told me to 

Laugh 'till my face was twisted 

And the tears ran down my face 

And I couldn't stand?

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What if I wanted to break 

Fall into insanity 

Fall to blissful release 

Cause the crazy don't care about 

What other people think? 

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So what would you do, then? 

Would you lock me away? 

Invent some excuse 

For my wild behavior 

So I could live in your life? 

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Would you still try to mold me?

Control me ? 

Try to make me into the person 

You never could be? 

But why me? 

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Why me? 

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Don't you realize 

What you've done to me? 

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There was peace in my heart 

Once. 

There was silence in my mind 

Once. 

I thought I was beautiful 

Once. 

I thought I was fine 

Once. 

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Then you came along 

And told me I was wrong 

In trying to save me 

"From social destruction" 

You've destroyed me. 

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You put pain in my heart 

You put demons in my mind 

You opened my eyes to my imperfections

And now I can't stop looking. 

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So if you ask me 

Why I destroyed myself 

So utterly 

I'll just tell you the truth. 

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I was already dead 

By the time you were through with me.



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