Septiplier one shots ^_^

You can only (ill be there part 2)

(Thanks to saro510 for the idea to continue this ^_^ also, turns out the place I'm staying has wifi so I might not have to update 5 chapters at once! Also, this one is from Mark's PoV)

I got divorced today.
I really thought I'd gotten it right this time. Everything seemed to be perfect. But that's not right, is it? Nothing's ever perfect. There's always a flaw, a crack, a tear you don't see until it's too late. You can only let yourself be hurt so many times before its time to walk away.

I quit YouTube today.
Everything's been going downhill. I've lost the motivation that got me up every morning. I lost contact with most of my friends after I got married to him, he forced me to choose. The spark that drove me to record, to laugh, to smile, to game, has finally gone out. I doubt it'll light again. You can only force a smile so many times before its impossible to do it again.

I attempted suicide today.
Everyone has their limit. When someone has no reason to cling to their life, when someone has been shoved violently past their limit, then it become harder and harder to stay here. I wonder how many times I looked at my gun in the drawer, the pills in the bathroom or the rope in the shed, before I decided to do it. You can only wake up so many times before you never want to again.

I saw you again today.
Someone found me, I don't know who. Apparently i was out for a week before I woke up in hospital. They keep telling me I'm lucky, but am I? I doubt it. Then I saw you. Whoever found me, called you and told you what had happened. We hadn't spoken in a year, but you still came all the way to La just to make sure I was ok. Why did you do that? I was so awful to you, I pushed you away. Surely you can only push people away so many times, before they stop trying to reach you.

We talked for hours today.
We talked, and talked, like nothing had happened. I never felt this relaxed talking to him. I forgot how right it felt when it was just us, and that scares me. I don't want to fall again, I can't. It's not worth the risk, and you don't need to be burdened with someone like me. You can only let yourself love so much before you don't want to do it again.

And yet, after one year...

You asked me out today.
I said yes. I can talk to you in a  way I could never talk to him. You're the one who brought me back into the world I had before him. You're the one who brought Bob and wade back into my life. You're the one who re-lit the spark that had died so long ago. You're the one who makes me feel ok, the one who makes me feel safe. You can only force down your feelings for so long, and a year was long enough.

We kissed for the first time today.
It wasn't big, it wasn't romantic, It was just us. Curled against each other on the sofa, watching I-don't-know-what on the TV, when you turned and smiled at me, and I smiled back, and the next thing I knew, my arms were around your neck as you joined out lips. It felt right, like this was where I was supposed to be. You can only have a first kiss with someone once, and ours was perfect.

I proposed to you today.
Three years after we got together, I finally had the confidence to ask you to marry me. I have never been that nervous in my life, and I doubt I ever will be again. I never was good at romance, but I think I did ok. I mean, proposing where we had our first date was a good idea right? Either way, you cried and said yes and hugged me, and I cried and smiled and slid the ring onto your finger. I used to think you can only fall in love once, but every time we kiss I fall in love all over again.

Mark smiled, looking up from his notecards, and smiling at the man in front of him, tears in both of their eyes. "And look at us now. I thought my life was over when I left him, but how wrong was i? Leaving him was the best thing I ever  did, because it led me here" he wiped his eyes and took hold of Jack's hands, looking him in the eyes and smiling again "I'm not scared I'll screw this up, I'm not scared something will happen and I'll lose you. Because after all, you can only get something wrong so many times, before you get it perfectly right."