Septiplier one shots ^_^

The cliff

I'm sitting back on the cliff we sat on only a week ago Mark, can you see me? Can you remember the wind in your face? The smell of the sea? The loud seagulls above us or the roar of the waves below? Can you remember how we looked to the horizon, past the sharp rocks that jutted out of the velvet blue ocean below us, our hands intertwined as we talked about the future? Because I'll never forget it. I'll never forget your smile as we sat together, or how it felt like we were the only people alive, or how I wanted this to last forever. Sometimes, It was us against the world, but we lived for the fight. You were  strong, independent, loving and so much more, and For some reason I was the one you chose to keep by your side.

That's why I'll never forget the fall.

The grass was so damp with dew it was almost like ice. When you stood up, you slipped. You fell away from me, and there was nothing I could do. You fell down and down, into the calm below us. It swallowed you whole, and in that moment it became the world against me. I swore blind that you'd be ok, you were Markiplier! You were brave, strong, you never went down without a fight and you never lost.

Except right now.

Sometimes I'll lie awake at night and wonder if you're watching. Do you hear me crying, or see me curled against your side of the bed. I barely sleep now, but whenever I try, do you see my curled in your old shirts? They still smell like you, sometimes, if I'm really tired, that's enough. But that's really rare. Can you see how quiet Bob and wade are without you? Can you see how lost we all look? Do you ever wish you were still here, by our side? Do you miss us? That's why I'm back here, because I miss you and I can't do this alone, and yet I can't. I can't jump, because I can almost see the blur of red that was your hair, sometimes, just out of the corner of my eye. I can't jump because even though I know you're not there, I can feel your arms around me, holding me back. They're protective, loving and safe, the way they were when you were alive. But most of all, I can't jump because I can hear your words in my head. I close my eyes and focus on them. I can hear you telling me I'll be ok, that life goes on and that you'll see me again someday. I can hear you so clearly that It hurts like the first time when I open my eyes and remember you're not here. But a tiny part of me can feel it, you are here.

You're beside me, your hand on mine and a smile on your face. I can feel your head on my shoulder and I can hear you tell me you love me. I only wish I could see it, but for now, in this moment, this is all I needed to pull me back from the edge.