Finding Forgiveness {Jerza}

Glass Hearts

Jellal's P.O.V.

I couldn't think straight, "What did you lie to me about? No- why did you lie to me? Wait- was it about something serious? Are you hiding something serious from me? Does it have to do about us? Are you unhappy?"

"Jellal," She cut me off. My thoughts were racing.

Was she breaking up with me? 

She sat silently, taking in shallow breaths while keeping her eyes plastered on the floor. She looked so sad... So upset over the situation that I almost wanted to drop everything where it was at to comfort her.

But what if she didn't want my comfort?

I looked away as I ran my fingers through my hair. 

"It's about a couple weeks ago," She began silently. She started tracing imaginary shapes on her thigh nervously. I couldn't help but notice how her hands were shaking.

Another thing that killed me inside. Erza only shook when she was truly upset- when she didn't know what to do because she was so scared.

What did I do? I want to do anything and everything to make her happy again... But I don't know where to start... And shouldn't I be the one upset? She lied to me, didn't  she? Why am I trying to make things better?

UGH! This is so confusing...

"What about a couple weeks ago?" I snapped at her. It came out way harsher than I wanted it to; in a way that made her jump at the sound. Was I scaring her? I didn't mean to. This is all happening so fast.

"T-The training," She whispered, "I know how much it meant to you... But I was lying about being unable to do it."

I stopped breathing.

That's it? That's what she lied to me about!? Why was she so upset!? 

"I don't care about that," I mumbled as I swiftly closed the distance between us and pulled her into a hug. She was shivering.

She sniffled into my shoulder as I held her and I couldn't help but feel slightly relaxed. 

She doesn't want to break up.

I took a deep breath and smiled to myself, grateful that Erza was still committed to me. She could do much better, after all.

She did, however, manage to scare the hell out of me.

"Why are you so sad, then?" I softly asked her. Her shivering grew worse.

"B-B-Because," Her voice choked, and I knew she was getting more upset by the second.

I hugged her tighter into myself.

"Remember what I told you?" I asked, "I told you that you could tell me anything. I'm not leaving,"

She finally hugged me back. I felt her hands clutch onto the back of my shirt like a child's. She began crying properly, which killed me inside. The fear inside of me only got worse, building up at the sound of her tears.

"I-If we do the u-unison raid," She managed to stutter, "One of us w-will..."

She cried harder, gripping onto me as if we were being pulled away from one another. Her hand was firmly pulling at my shirt and I didn't know what to do. My mind was racing again.

The unison raid we tried to pull off was using two of our less powerful spells. We couldn't possibly damage one another to the extent of...

...Could we?

More magic energy is stored in a wizard than it is exerted in a spell... But when wizards combine their magic, they don't just combine spells, they combine their magic power as a total. And with both of us contributing to each other that much...