Best of both worlds

Chapter 18

Trigger warning! If your sensitive to the topic of suicide then please be careful! I will mark the triggering paragraph with 🙃🙃🙃 so please be aware!

I was sat on an old chair in the hospital waiting room. Zoe and Emma had gone back to the flat to clear up the mess whilst Louise had volunteered to stay with me. I just stared at the floor, thinking about the journey over here and watching Dans limp body for the entire journey. The tears on my face had dried up, leaving salty streaks down my face. "Are you ok?" Louise asked, rubbing my shoulder "I'm fine, I just want Dan to be alright". She took her hand off my shoulder "you really love him don't you?" I looked up at her, she was staring right back at me "of course I do" I sniffled. "He never told you about his last girlfriend did he?" I sat up a big straighter, he had a girlfriend before me? I guess he would, him being Dan howell. "She went out with him for a few months until Dan found out she was a bit unconventional" I wanted to know more about this previous girlfriend but our conversation was interrupted by a man in a long white coat. "Is anyone here for Daniel James howell?" A few heads turned at his name, I raised my hand "we are" I tried to ignore the people staring, they must recognise us.  

"I'm afraid only one of you are allowed to see him" he explained "for safety reasons" Louise let me go in. The doctor led me down a short hallway to a door with the number 416 on it. He pushed the door open and the first thing I heard was the beeping of machines and the sound of a woman's voice humming "we have a visitor for mr howell" the doctor gestured for me to enter. The room was nice, as nice as a hospital room can be anyway. The nurse waved at me and removed her surgical mask "hello, your mr Howells girlfriend I believe?" I nodded, I wondered how she knew- oh yeah, YouTube "he should be waking up soon" she pointed at a chair positioned next to the bed, I walked over sheepishly and sat down. The doctor and nurse began to exchange medical notes whilst I watched over Dan, his face was still shockingly pale but he looked a lot healthier.

"So what happened to mr howell exactly?" The doctor looked up from his notepad "um.. Him and his roommate got into a fight" I kept tripping on my tongue, I kept remembering the fight, it was terrifying to watch. "A fight..." He scanned his notes and scrawled something at the bottom "do you know what they were fighting about?" I didn't want to tell him they fought over me, I felt ashamed. "I'm not sure" I fiddled with the hem of my shirt nervously. "Ok, thank you for that information" the doctor shoved the notepad in his pocket and left the room. "I'm going to have to check up on another patient, I'll be back in a few minutes" the nurse left and it was just Dan and I. I leant forward and held his pale hand, he looked so innocent when he was asleep, like he was having the best dream ever. Suddenly the machines beeping sped up and I started to panic, I looked around, not letting go of dans hand, to see if there was a nurse or doctor anywhere that could help. "Y/N.." My eyes darted back down at Dan to see his eyes half open, I felt like Christmas had come early. "Oh thank god your ok!" I kissed his forehead and he winced "sorry! I forgot" the machines beeping had become a lot more regulated. "How are you feeling?" I asked him, he had a rouge hobbit curl in the middle of his forehead "I feel like someone's slicing my head open with a knife" he stretched out his legs a little bit "well that did happen a few hours ago" I remember watching the crowd of doctors rushing him down the hallways to the operating theatre. "You mean I had surgery?" I nodded, Im so glad he's awake, I started to think he would never wake up. "The doctors said that you should make a full recovery" I brushed the stray curl from his forehead gently, being careful not to cause him any pain.

The nurse pushed the door open with her foot, she was holding a bottle of water in one hand and a sandwich in the other. "Ah! Mr howell, I see your awake at last" she handed me the sandwich and she placed the water on the table next to dans bed. "Do you know when we will be able to leave?" I asked the nurse as she was fiddling with the machines "I expect you'll be able to leave in a few hours, we just need to get the medication for mr howell ready" she replied, a few hours? I wanted to take Dan home now, "until then you can rent a movie or watch TV while you wait" she turned on a small TV that was stowed away behind a curtain. Suddenly the doctor burst in "nurse we need your help on a patient, they've gone from stable to critical" the nurse nodded and without saying another word, left with the doctor. "What do you want to watch?" I got up from my chair and walked over to the TV remote, somehow we ended up watching the Keith lemon. "Can you tell me what happened after I was knocked out?" I began to tell him about the trip to the hospital, watching the doctors crowd around him and the atmosphere in the waiting room, I didn't tell him about Phil, I thought it might upset him. "So not the most relaxing situation then?" I shook my head, Dan seemed to be unfazed by the pain and stress he was experiencing, he was actually very calm. "Y/N, I have a feeling something bad is going to happen" I gave him a quizzical look "why do you think that?" I turned down the TV volume so that I could hear him better "I don't know, I just have a bad feeling in my gut".

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About 3 hours later a different nurse walked in "hello mr howell, I'm glad to tell you that you've been deemed healthy enough to leave" thank god for that, they certainly took their time. "I just need to tell you when to have your meds and then you'll be good to go" Dan slowly sat up in his bed "thank you nurse" I said, I smiled at Dan and he smiled back. "I'm sorry we couldn't let you out sooner, we had someone come in who overdosed on Tylenol" holy crap, someone attempted to commit suicide, that's horrible "are they ok?" Dan asked, he seemed more worried than I was. "They're okay for now" I exhaled in relief, I would've been a wreck if they had succeeded "now let me run you through your meds" she began listing about 40 different drugs, I tried my best to keep up with them by making notes on my phone. "Okay! Now that that's over with I think you can go" the nurse and I helped Dan out of bed and to the reception. I had to fill out a horrendous amount of paperwork but then we were allowed to go "I'll call Louise so that she can come pick us up" I lead Dan through the empty hallways and into the waiting room, as I looked around I suddenly saw Zoe sat down staring at the floor. "Zoe!" She looked up at me and I immediately saw a tears in her eyes "Zoe?" She sniffled "Zoe, it's ok now, dans alright" I reassured her, Dan stood still behind me. "It's not Dan I'm worried about" she hiccuped in the middle of her sentence, I heard Dan mumble something under his breath "it's Phil" I widened my eyes at her "what about Phil?" Dan started breathing heavily "he tried to.." She began crying again "he tried to kill himself".

Hey guys! I hope you enjoyed that chapter! Sorry again for the sensitive topic, I mean no disrespect to anybody who has had an experience with suicide, either through a family member, friend or themselves. Remember that suicide is a permanent answer to a temporary problem. But on another note, OH MY GOD! THIS STORYS ALREADY GOTTEN 500 READS?? WHAT?? This is absolutely crazy! Thank you so much! remember to vote, comment and add this story to your reading list! A new chapter will be up very soon!