Best of both worlds

Chapter 19

Just like the last chapter there will be suicide in this story so be aware!

"What?" I stared at her in disbelief, Phil would never do something like that "he left this note on the bathroom floor for you two" Zoe rummaged through her bag and pulled out a neatly folded piece of paper. I opened it careful and began reading it to myself

Dear Y/N and Dan
I'm so unbelievably sorry for what I did to you, I'm a horrible person and an even worse friend. Dan you were right, I am jealous of you, you got what I wanted so desperately and I couldn't control myself. Y/N, ever since I first met you I knew I wanted to be with you, but you fell for Dan and I can't change that, just know that I will always love you and care about you. If I don't make it out of this whole thing alive I want you two to break the news to my family and fans gently, goodbye.

Zoe and Dan both began crying but I just felt numb, I couldn't feel anything. "He overdosed on-" I cut Zoe off "Tylenol?" She wiped her eyes "how did you know?" I ran my fingers through my hair "the nurse told us about him, only we didn't know it was him" I explained to her, Dan was still sobbing heavily so I turned around to face him "it's all my fault.." He cried, I embraced him in my arms gently so I didn't aggravate his wounds. "It's not your fault Dan" I reassured him "your right, it's not my fault..." I'm glad he understood, it wouldn't help the situation if he kept blaming himself "it's yours!" He pointed at me, I was shell shocked, why would he say something like that? "Dan, you can't blame Y/N for this" Zoe said in my defence, she wiped away her tears and stood up next to me "oh shut up Zoe" he snapped "your no better than her" why was he saying these things? Hadn't we been through enough today? "Dan.." I reached my hand out to him but he just pushed it away "don't Dan me" he glared at me "you killed my best friend" what had happened to him? He's lost his old self, the old playful, nerdy Dan was gone, in his place was a ruthless, backstabbing stranger. "Dan! Wake the fuck up! Y/N didn't kill him, he almost killed you!" Zoe spat, she was a snivelling wreck less than ten seconds ago, what the hell was going on with everyone in my life? "Do fuck off Zoe" by this point I had completely shut down, I was stood their letting these two fight it out, I just wanted to go home and cry "and you" Dan grabbed my shirt collar and I stared into his hazel eyes "I never want to see you, hear you or hear of you, ever again" he pushed me back "bitch" he turned around and ran down the hallway we had just come from.

Dan's POV-

"Mr howell your back! What happened to your girlfrie-" I stopped the nurse before she could finish her sentence, that bitch isn't my girlfriend anymore. "Hi! Yes I'd like to see mr lester?" The nurse gave me a weird look and began to rummage through some files "he's in room 213" I thanked her and sprinted down the hall to Phil's room.

Once I found the right room I knocked on the door hoping for an answer "come in" I pushed the door open to see three doctors standing around a bed. "Hello, may I ask who you are?" One of the doctors asked me "I'm Dan howell, Phil's roommate" the doctor nodded and turned back around "can I see him?" I asked sheepishly "of course" two doctors stepped back to let me through. I immediately laid eyes on Phil's pale body, he was still alive, thank god,  but he had bruises along one side of his body. "What happened to his side?" I asked one of the doctors "he fell after he consumed the pills, pretty badly bruised but no major damage" they were all jotting down notes and checking equipment like nothing was wrong, like there wasn't a dying person in front of them "will he live?" That question would make or break me, I was anxious for an answer "yes, thankfully we made it to the scene just in time and he will make a full recovery" I breathed out heavily, thank fuck for that. "Good" I nodded "I need to go now but when he wakes up can you tell him I visited?" The doctor nodded "thank you" I began to walk to the door, I looked at Phil one last time before the door cut off my view.

Your POV-

I sat on my bed, Zoe had dropped me off and gone back to her place with Alfie, I was alone in my flat. Suddenly I burst out crying, I had lost everything today, I've lost Dan, I've lost Phil and I've lost all self respect. I still can't believe Dan called me a bitch, after everything we've been through, He's so ungrateful. Whilst I was crying on my bed I heard my landline ring, I wiped my eyes and sniffed my nose and then went to answer it "hello?" My nose was blocked from all the crying making me sound like I have a cold "Y/N, are you ok?" It was joe sugg "yeah I'm fine, how did you get this number?" I asked "well Zoe came back home in tears and said that someone needed to talk to you and see if your ok" he explained "so I thought I would ask Zoe for your number and see what's wrong" it's nice to see that joe is still the same, still kind and caring. "Thank you joe, I appreciate it" I was about to hang up when joe suddenly yelled down the line "wait! Me and the lads are going out tomorrow do you want to tag along?" I contemplated his offer for a while, I was planning on crying the whole of tomorrow, but I can re schedule. "Ok, I'd love to" at least it would get me outside "great! 1:00pm at the park, we'll be there" he hung up, it might be fun having out with some you tubers I don't normally hang out with, there won't be as much drama.

Dans POV-

I suddenly heard a knock on the door, I was in the living room sorting out the furniture so that it would be clean for when phil gets back "who is it?" I yelled out "it's Zoe" I rolled my eyes, she's probably come over to have a go at me. "Go away" I fluffed a pillow and placed it back onto the sofa "you can't hide from this Dan!" I just ignored her "Your gonna have to face this sooner or later" I grabbed a bottle of window spray and paper towels "your being such a selfish dick!" She's not going to leave until I let her in "fine!" I threw the spray and paper towels onto the sofa and walked to the door. As soon as I opened the door Zoe stepped inside "Your a nasty piece of work Dan howell" she spat, I just stayed silent, I wasn't in the mood for arguing, especially with Zoe. "What the hell was going through your brain to say that?" She said "say what?" I walked back into the living room, I still had cleaning that needed to be done "call Y/N a bitch!" She yelled at me "and break up with her so viciously!" Fuck, did I break up with Y/N? It slipped my mind "that poor girl is sat at home crying her eyes out!" I stopped wiping the window "I don't know why, your not worth her tears" I dropped the spray and kitchen towel on the ground "get out" I commanded her "no" she crossed her arms "I said get out" I turned around to face her "why should I?" She started tapping her foot "GET OUT!" I screamed at her. "Ok Dan calm down" she put her hands out I front of her "GET THE HELL OUT OF MY HOUSE ZOE!" I pointed at the door and stamped my foot "fuck you!" She marched out and slammed the front door shut with such force the building shook. The second she left the room I broke down in tears, Im so fucking angry at myself for breaking up with Y/N, I love her so much, I've got to make things right with her.

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