Once In A Lifetime

☯Chapter Nine

***************Cyn POV****************

I Just Hide In The Bathroom And Breath. Erica Said I Took My Medicine But I Am Double Dosing That Bitch. My Disorder Has Been Good For Years Since Before Mary. I Stayed On Point With It. When Erica, King, And Mimi Came Into The Picture, I Was Able To Handle But Actually Seeing An Abuse BABY Makes Me Wanna Go Kill That Son Of Bitch On The Spot. I Take Another Pill And Swallowed It Down, Then Looked In The Mirror.

"Calm Down Cyn. You Are Not A Killer And Crazy. Enjoy Your Wife, Kids, And Make Sure That Baby Is Safe For Now. You Are Better Than This" Trying To Motivate And Keep Myself Calm

Once My Breathing Was Okay And Stop Shaking, I Head Back Out To See Erica Setting Out The Kids Lunch With The Baby Laying On Her Shoulder

" You Okay? No Panic Attack" Giving Me My Vitamins Crushed Up Like Crack And My Gummies

" No...I Just Took More Than Normal And Calmed Down. It Just Triggered A Nerve And It Was Needed" Gulping Down Erica's Orange Juice. I Feel Hella Better Now. Cyn Santana Can't Let Loose. That's How I Got With That Bald Light Skin Dude Rih Loved Once Upon Time.

The Baby Looks At Me And Smile. She's Just The Cutest Little Thing And Got Me Smiling. I Remember King At Her Age And Would Hold On To Erica With Dear Life If It Wasn't Mac Daddy

" You Want To Hold Her? She's A Good Baby" Holding The Baby Out To Me And I Got Her With A ' Mhm' As A Response. She Laughed And Giggled Once She Got Into My Arms But Whimpered Cause Of Her Legs. I Carefully Held Her And Let Her Talk To Me About Whatever In Gibberish. Its The Cutest Thing.

" Babe Do You Think That She Will Ever Remember This When She's One...You Know Being Hurt" Watching Her Mix Tay Medicine In His Fruit Punch

" I Don't Know But I Did" Shrugging Her Shoulders While She Sets The Table For The Kids Arrival

I Honestly Can't Express Being Hurt As A Baby And Tell Her I Know You Feel Because I Have No Idea. My Dad Never Put His Hands On Me And Did Show Me Some Attention As Baby. He Wasn't Always A Bad Man.

" Well Hopefully She Can Get Help And With A Better Family" Playing With Her Hair

" And If She Dont?" Sliding Next To Me And Hid Her Face In My Neck, Which Caused Me To Giggle Cause Its My Most Ticklish Spot

" Then We'll Find Something For Her" Holding The Baby Up

Giving Kelani Away Killed Part Of Erica And Til This Day She Constantly Question Herself Why Did She Give Her Daughter Away. I Personally Felt That She Should Have Told Me Before Lisa Adopted Her. Either Way Kelani Is Happy. Giving Away Another Child And It's Girl Is Rough Ass Fuck. I Really Don't Wanna Go Through That Again

" Babeee She Has Pegs!" Squealing As We Spot Little White Pegs Under Her Tongue

" Damn..She Gotta Be Bout Five To Six Months Babe....Well Hello Gorgeous..You Are Growing Up Already" Cooing Her And She Screams Holding My Fingers

Erica Fed Her While I Eat My Sandwich. We Got The Kids Clothes Out, Which Is Basically Cute Gucci Jumpers And Shoes, And Wrapped Up The Baby In A Blanket Since We Have Nothing For Her Besides Pampers, Bottle, And Formula. I Got Me And E Simple Outifts Like A Crop Top, Jeans, And Heels. Now We Got The Kids New Rayban Glasses And Jackets. Yea We Don't Let Anyone Get A Pitcure Of Our Children. The Baby Is Gonna Wear Mimi's Play Princess Glasses. Erica Gave Her Domo's Old Paci And She Loves It.

" Whats Her Name? Cause Baby Girl Can't What We Tell The Kids And The Girls" Erica Says As She Changing Her Nasty Ass Diaper

" Well...We Can Decide It Together With The Kids And Go With It For A Day" I Replied While Fixing Domo, King, And Mimi Snack Bag