Once In A Lifetime

☯ Sixth Year Anniversary Special☯

Cyn POV

I Was At The House With My Mom & The Kids, I Don't Know Where Erica And Albee Went They Just Walked Out The House. Im Still Not Talkative With My Mom And I Flinch Everytime She Tries To Touch Me. I Know Her Feelings Are Hurt Because Of It But I Can't Help It. I Know She Wants To Have A One On One Conversation With Me But I Dont Know If I'm Ready For That. Im Just Sitting With The Kids And We Are Talking While My Mom Is Around The House Doing Whatever.

"Mommy Are You Okay?" Mimi Asked Sitting In My Lap. "Yes I Am Why What's The Matter" I Said To Her as I rubbed her back. "You Left Us, You Or Momma Didn't Come Get Us" She Said. I Felt Bad Right Then And There And The Other Kids Just Looked At Me Waiting For An Answer. I Never Wanted My Kids To Feel Like I Didn't Want Them.

" I Didn't Leave You Guys, Momma And I Were Just Having Some Problems That We Needed To Fix. I Don't Want You Guys To Feel Unloved Or Abandoned." I Said To All Of Them." You Don't Care About Us But It Is Fine We Don't Need You" Tay Said Storming Off.

Tay Was More Mature Then The Other Kids And I Figured He Would Take It Harder But Not Like This. I Set Mimi Down And Told Them To Watch Tv While I Went To Find Tay. I Found Him Outside On The Porch Looking At.. The Street I Guess.

"Tay Can We Talk?" I Asked Him Sitting Next To Him. He Looked At Me Then Back To The Street I Knew This Was Going To Be Harder Than I Thought. " Buddy Im Sorry For Leaving You Guys, I Just Couldn't Let You Guys See Us Like That." I Tried To Explain To Him. He Looked At Me And Stood Up.

" I Really Don't Want Your Apology. You Don't Get It When You Guys Left We Didn't Know What Was Going On And We Barely Got A Call From Either One Of You, Do You Know How Many Time My Siblings Cried For You Guys And Since Im There Big Brother I Had To Handle It. I May Be Only 10 Years Old But I Know What Was Going On, I Heard Everything I Know You Guys Were Mad At Each other."

I Can't Believe He Just Said That To Me I Had No Idea That He Knew Everything That Happened. I Didn't Think That Us Leaving Would Have This Impact On Them. We Weren't Gone For That Long But Still My Kids Shouldn't Be Feeling Like This.

"Tay Im So Sorry Baby Boy I Didn't Know That Us Leaving Would Have That Type Of Impact On Y'all But Momma And I Were Going Through Some Things That We Didn't Want You Guys To See And We Didn't Forget About You Guys. We Just Didn't Forget About You Guys" I Said To Him As He Stood There Looking At The Ground. I Got Up And Hugged Him And Told Him I Loved Him Over And Over Again As He Cried In My Arms.

I Know That Erica And I Can't Keep Having Problems Like This Because It Is Really Effecting Our Kids. After A Few Minutes Of Him Crying In My Arms I Lifted His Head And Wiped His Tears And Kissed His Cheek.

"Baby Boy Im Sorry And I Promise You We Aren't Going To Leave You Guys Anymore And Momma And I Are Going To Work Out All Our Problems So You Guys Don't Have To Worry About Things Like This." I Said To Him Looking In His Eyes. "Come On Lets Go Watch Tv With Your Brothers And Sisters." I Told Him. We Walked In The Living Room And I Cuddled With My Babies Well Not Really But One Baby And Watched Tv. I Really Did Miss Them And I Know For Sure Im Never Leaving Like That Again Because Seeing Your Kids Heartbroken Is Not A Pleasant Sight.

After A Few Hours Of Sitting And Watching A Movie With My Kids. My Mom Came And Gave Me A Letter And Walked Back Out. I Looked At The Letter And Opened It

Dear Cyn,

I know you are wondering where i went but i have set up something special for you. I know we have been at eachother's necks lately but i don't want that for us. I want us to be happy and in love like we were before so what i need you to do is leave the kids with your mom and track my phone and it will lead you to that special place so do it now.